my life story

2008-11-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

looking at the mirror
feel like shouting at myself for being stupid
why why..
why I love you so
why I hav to let u go..
voices running in my mind..
once again..
feeling heartache
so painful deep down in there
jus like a knife cutting slowly deep in.
tears drop down my eyes
again and again
no matter how many times I dry it.
still.. jus like a tap water running down my eyes..

feeling so helpless
feeling down
wishing u r jus out there
helping me to ease the pain..
but..
you r nowhere to be seen..
I miss you..

I love u
yes I do
tats y I will let u go..
真的只要你快乐

2008-11-30T22:25:00.001+08:00

只要你快乐

就算是想通了
let it go woo 我
就是无法强装往日的笑容
ooh yeah
想不透每一次
when you call
就是不能掩饰想念的冲动
为什么
试着安静的平静的
仔细的去感受
灼热的感觉直达心中
多么的震憾我也要勇敢触碰
只要你快乐
真的只要你快乐
不管这像不像我多么难过
也会欣然接受你擦身走过
我要你快乐
真的只要你快乐
随时都为你保留我的问候
我一遍一遍重覆我的心痛
某一天也许我
have to go
不再躲避回忆任意的捕捉
我还是会唱着
missing you
从此面对往事而无动于衷
就算安静的平静的
仔细的去感受
灼热的感觉直达心中
它不再震憾我我能够勇敢触碰
只要你快乐
真的只要你快乐
不管我追求什么害怕什么
也会欣然接受你擦身走过
我要你快乐
真的只要你快乐
再见也可以夺走一字不留
我一遍一遍重覆我的心痛
只要你快乐
真的只要你快乐
不管我追求什么害怕什么
也会欣然接受你擦身走过
我要你快乐
真的只要你快乐
再见也可以夺走一字不留
我一遍一遍重覆我的心痛
就算是想通了
let it go woo 我
就是不能掩饰想念的冲动
为什么

2008-11-28T22:23:00.001+08:00

十指紧扣

即使　可以暢聚
最幸運的一對伴侶
沿途仍舊牽手伴隨
原來為了溫韾之中帶著了恐懼
若那對手放鬆了　會怕失去

#@緊緊　擁抱以外
我用甚麼感到被愛
沿途陪著你　手鬆下來
遺留十寸空間誰相信　你在乎我
若罅隙拉闊　隨時會分開

誰都知雙手可緊扣
不依不捨的背後
這個信念有多溫柔
從害怕會被擁有
直到氣力不夠
十隻手指終於找得到對手
(十隻手指就是絕望時扶手)

能開不開心都緊扣
辛不辛苦都接受
是一個成就
可惜我只想與一個人尾指一勾
(可惜我只得我一個人翹起雙手)#
也沒有@
Repeat # @

2008-11-27T12:40:00.001+08:00

Hate to have tis messy kind of feeling
when I'm at wrk
I know I have to face it
I know all the while
Jus the matters of time
No matters wat I got to take it all.
Its ok..
trust me..
trust myself..
I'll be fine.
I will..

2008-11-25T00:46:00.001+08:00

having a bad headache yet
I cant fall aslp
WTF..
hate tis kind of feeling..

2008-11-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

你到底爱谁

一个人喝醉
好想找个人来陪
我们之间有太多的误会
爱不能再沉睡
是可悲是摧毁
我不要再为谁掉眼泪
爱过才后悔
想要用酒来麻醉
我们之间有太多的误会
爱不能再沉睡
是可悲是摧毁
我不要再为谁而心碎
求求你给我个机会
不要再对爱说无所谓
如果相爱是完美
就让我们用真心去面对
求求你给我个机会
不要再对爱说无所谓
留下了太多伤悲
告诉我
你到底爱着谁

2008-11-23T14:47:00.002+08:00

if YOU happen to read my blog
tis is for YOU
Pls dun forget and try to treat like
nothing hav happen before when YOU ever
said tat YOU can forget tat I'm not YOUR friends
and bad mouth about me to others..
And I dun wrk in a information service line
And I'm not a free information counter
pls dun ask me question again.
even when u call 100 or 1711 u need to pay also.
I'm not silly I'm not a fool
I jus dun bother wat YOU hav said tats all..

2008-11-22T16:28:00.002+08:00

I duno y
dun feel good
after looking after thinking
I know I mayb thinking too much
over react
but I think tis is normal ba.
everyone comes to tis situation
will feel the same as me..I think..

2008-11-21T03:32:00.002+08:00

got tis video fr my friend's blog
its about the white tiger attack in singapore zoo..
not very clear so pls forgive..

2008-11-21T03:19:00.002+08:00

3am le..
still awake..
nothing to do jus now
so decided to watch "fa zhen xian feng2"
haiz..
sometimes I wonder
y god hav to be so unfair to us
always give us happiness at first
and take them away fr us the other sec.
does god feel good looking at us crying
or getting hurts?
too complicated le..

Tis I promise
I will treasure every moment with u
cos I didnt wan any regret.
even tat we onli hav tis few days..

2008-11-19T01:56:00.002+08:00

once again
at tis hour and I'm still awake
wat is wrong with me?
tired yet cant slp.

chances hav to get it myself
I know..
all I ask is I need some times
I really need it.
I will try.
dun judge me to death for
only tis few days.
give myself a chance and yrself a chance
to prove tat dreams can really come true..
will u?

as times go by..
as earth going round the world
as human growing old each days
my heart will still remain..

2008-11-18T01:43:00.002+08:00

trying to fall to slp
but till now I still awake
is it good or bad?
tonight is not the first night le.
then everytime when wrking I feel super tired
can dun even eat my lunch
and take a nap in the staff room

I realise duno when I start to hav 1 meal a day le
either onli hav lunch
or jus dinner..
jus feel tat nothing is so delicious
and can keep me eating non stop..

20 more mins going to 2am le.
thinking will I fall aslp by then..
hope so ba.

2008-11-17T19:03:00.002+08:00

so much to say
so much to share
yet every little things I wan to
jus cant be done.

words said hav to be done..

2008-11-15T00:10:00.003+08:00

jus came back fr agnes's hus
wen over her hus to see those cute rabbits.
photos will be load in facebook..

now other than blogging, gaming,
watching movies online
I think there's nothing I can do le ba.

tml is my last off day
sun got to start wrk again..
haiz..
why is human life so bored
wrk eat slp wrk eat and slp
or can say tis is how life is when u r a singaporean?
night spots are those like clubbing and drinking
other than tat no more le
wondering how others countries are like..
think much more better than singapore ba.

shall stop here and continue my movies le.
ciaos...

2008-11-14T15:49:00.002+08:00

slp at 7 plus in the morning
wake up in the afternoon around 3pm
a day hav pass.. before shutting my eyes
at 7am in the morning
I was reading my love one's blog entry
starting fr 2005
I haven got to know her yet at tat time
but after reading her entry till 2008
(continue reading when I woke up)
I start to came in to her life..
memories running in my mind
goods times and bad times.
how we go tro bits by bits..
shaking my head continuous
feeling upset feeling hurt
cos seem like wat we going tro
still get back to the original circle we hanging on.

songs playing again and again
how I wish I can go back to the times
when we first met
and make my dicision
and stop the time tat we use to hav
holding us so tightly so sweet..

2008-11-14T05:32:00.002+08:00

古巨基-情歌王

(forever love 王力宏)
爱你不是因为你的美而已
我越来越爱你
每个眼神触动我的心
(两个人的烟火黎明)
最爱你的是我
否则你怎麽让我
否则我怎麽可能赴汤蹈火
你说什麽都做
(如果.爱张学友)
如果这就是爱
在转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉
(童话光良)
我要变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
(很爱很爱你刘若英)
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心
(我愿意王菲)
我愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你忘记我姓名
只要你真心拿爱与我回应
我什麽都愿意为你
(好想好想古巨基)
好想好想好想好想
好想好想和你在一起
(明天我要嫁给你了周华健)
明天我要嫁给你啦
明天我要嫁给你啦
要不是你问我
要不是你劝我
要不是适当的时候你让我心动
(不得不爱潘玮柏弦子)
天天都需要你爱
我的心思由你猜
i love you
我就是要你让我每天都精彩
(阴天莫文蔚)
开始总是分分钟
都妙不可言
谁都以为热情它永不会减
总之那几年
感性赢了理性那一面
(飞机场的10:30陶喆)
baby baby baby baby
o baby baby o baby
是不是拥有以后就会开始要失去
我给你的越多
你却越想要躲
爱已无法回答所有的问题
(那麽爱你为什麽黄品源莫文蔚)
离开你是傻是对是错
是看破是软弱
这结果是爱是恨或者是什麽
(你怎麽舍得我难过黄品源)
最爱你的人是我
你怎麽舍得我难过
对你付出了这麽多
你却没有感动过
(爱我别走张震岳)
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
(让我欢喜让我忧周华健)
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受
(原来你什麽都不想要张惠妹)
原来你什麽都不想要
我不要你的承诺
不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好,贪心也好
最怕你把沉默,当做对我的回答
原来你什麽都不想要
(用心良苦张宇)
你说你想要逃
偏偏注定要落脚
情灭了爱熄了
剩下空心要不要
(祝福张学友)
伤离别离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远
若有缘有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节
(吻别张学友)
我和你吻别在无人的街
让风痴笑我不能拒绝
我和你吻别在狂乱的夜
我的心等着迎接伤悲

(把悲伤留给自己陈升)
能不能让我陪着你走
既然你说留不住你
回去的路有些黑暗
担心让你一个人走
(征服那英)
就这样被你征服切断了所有退路
我的心情是坚固我的决定是糊涂
(听海张惠妹)
听海哭的声音
叹惜着谁又被伤了心
(味道辛晓琪)
像你身上的味道
我想念你的吻
和手指淡淡烟草味道
记忆中曾被爱的味道
(我怀念的孙燕姿)
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
(领悟辛晓琪)
我多麽痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
爱的束缚任意追逐
别再为爱受苦
(月亮惹的祸张宇)
都是你的错在你的眼中
总是藏着让人又爱又怜的朦胧
都是你的错你的痴情梦
像一个魔咒
被你爱过还能为谁蠢动
(我们的爱 fir)
我们的爱
过了就不再回来
直到现在
我还默

2008-11-14T05:08:00.003+08:00

古巨基 - 勁歌金曲2 情歌王 [KTV] - PART 1

古巨基 - 勁歌金曲2 情歌王 [KTV] - PART 2

2008-11-14T04:58:00.002+08:00

now 5am le
wen out with nai eric keith mabel lex jaco and her gf
suppose to go clubbing
but when we reach there
the music suck and not much ppl
in the end we wen drinking
and wen to sing k at cine
now jus reach hm
finish bathing le and
haha I'm so awake WTF
is it becos I drank too much
till I'm awake??
darling say she nv see me drunk before
I think over
ya.. the most is high
how I wish I can get drunk..

tml will be another day
and I'll be fine..
I will...

2008-11-13T11:25:00.003+08:00

duno wat is wrong with my left eye
feel so painful
yet nothing inside
and I keeps tearing
so irritating..arrrrrr

2008-11-11T21:33:00.002+08:00

not in a good mood..
trying to cheer myself
but nothing helps.

2008-11-11T10:00:00.003+08:00

morning morning..
arrhh I was late for wrk today
I suppose to start wrk at 830
in the end I woke up at 8am..
haiz.. so rushing for wrk since in the morning..
u mus be wondering y I still can blog when I'm late
is becos my sup wen to UWS
and tat "big horse" is not around.. haha
anyway also can blog a little onli la
cos later got sch group order at 11am
got to go prepare also..

I think I'm going to be very sick soon..
cant slp well tis few days.
will fall to slp after 2am
so tired yet cant fall to slp.
u know tat feeling??
And I keep sneezing today.
sooner or later I think I may become a clown
by end of today..
haiz sian after tml I'm going to hav 3 days off
wat am I suppose to do??
anyone hav any plan??
date me out ok ok..

ok la. shall get back to wrk liao..
ciao...

2008-11-07T21:22:00.000+08:00

LOVE YOU MORE

Take me back into the arms I love
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that you wanted more

Don't go you know you will break my heart
She won't love you like I will
I'm the one who'll stay
When she walks away
And you know I'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you,
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew
Hold me so you can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we'll find a way
Believe me
I will make you see
All the things Natural Heart needs to know

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

2008-11-03T00:37:00.001+08:00

S.H.E- 安静了

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己 wo~

撒娇的可爱的

迷人的爱哭的

照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你
只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一场雨
努力就有结局 wo~
撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你爱着你的
连假的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

2008-10-18T11:50:00.002+08:00

finally back to blog again.
haiz. lazy to blog and nothing much to say also..

anyway now having my lunch
eating my ai xin lunch
tat baby hav make for me in the morning
fried rice with egg and fish fillet..
NICE!!!

recently my stomach dun feel good
duno y..
jus keep going to toilet once awhile
I hate tat!!! ARRHH..

thanks to loy intro a website to baby and me
tat I finally got to watch "Tang Xin Feng Bao" for free
and with fast loading..
I always wanted to watch tat show
somemore now got part2..
mus faster watch so tat baby can watch part2 together.. hee

shall go back to hav my "ai xin cao fan" le..

cya in my next entry..
ciao

2008-10-09T16:24:00.002+08:00

I'm tired tired tired
duno y
jus feel tired
hope I can rest in some comfortable place
for very very long

tml is my bowling tournament
feel so tired
duno whether will I win anot
haiz.
mood swing mood swing
swing here swing there
duno where it gone to..

2008-10-07T16:36:00.001+08:00

沉默的天盖住我的双眼

在悄悄的一瞬间感受到完整失恋

天空降落带走了精彩

每分每秒等待能避免这个无奈

你走了世界变小了

脑海也停留在空虚中

还留着手机留言里的

听着那句 Goodbye

我舍不得你这样的走

想到转时间重演你和我

你也曾经用真心去爱

但把整个宇宙的完美带走我舍不得

玫瑰一朵孤独的日落

夕阳的光在照自己更难微笑

所有美好随着你在跑

想念你的味道沉重在我心跳

你走了世界变小了

脑海也停留在空虚中

还留着手机留言里的

听着那句 Goodbye

我舍不得你这样的走

想到转时间重演你和我

你也曾经掏了心去爱

但把整个宇宙的完美带走我舍不得

We need to have one more try

我的心我的泪能不能够让你再感动

童话故事的我们浪漫电影的我们

我舍不得好舍不得

我舍不得你这样的走

想倒转时间重演你和我

你也曾经用真心去爱

但把整个宇宙的完美带走我舍不得

2008-10-07T16:23:00.001+08:00

I DISLIKE MYSELF
I HATE THE ONE I AM NOW
DUN ASK ME Y
COS I ALSO DUNO

2008-09-29T21:49:00.003+08:00

我不想忘记你

我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

2008-09-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

2008-09-29T21:21:00.001+08:00

2008-09-29T21:17:00.001+08:00

傻孩子

看着你无暇的表情
我猜不透真实你的心
我一直冷静
却还是走不出这秘密
好孤寂
我开始失去了勇气
而你却好像在游戏
我假装清醒
看清你的心
终于我选择了离去
你像个孩子一样的被我看穿
在你面前我试着隐瞒
所有过去全都变成伤害
我像个傻子一样的被你出卖
一字一句都要我承担
到了最后我选择分开
我开始失去了勇气
而你却好像在游戏
我假装清醒
看清你的心
终于我选择了离去
你像个孩子一样的被我看穿
在你面前我试着隐瞒
所有过去全都变成伤害
我像个傻子一样的被你出卖
一字一句都要我承担
到了最后我选择分开
你像个孩子一样的被我看穿
在你面前我试着隐瞒
所有过去全都变成伤害
我像个傻子一样的被你出卖
一字一句都要我承担
到了最后我选择分开

2008-09-29T21:13:00.000+08:00

2008-09-29T20:58:00.002+08:00

背叛

雨
不停落下来
花
怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人
欣赏悲哀
爱
只剩下无奈
我
一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块
就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何
say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
有一句感慨
还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段还在不在

2008-09-24T08:55:00.002+08:00

how well do u know me??

I hav been asking ppl around me tis question
and yes almost got the same ans when they first saw me

childlish, playful, flirt, unstable, selfish
all kind of bad side of me.
but after they know me
they realise I'm not.
totally diff fr the first time they know me
Thanks my friends.
you guys really know me well.
sorry for letting you guys so piss off
and wanted to throw tables and chairs on me.. whahaha
jus wan to irritate you guys
and keep saying tat same words.
MONEY CAN BUY HAPPINESS??? oops haha..
think after u guys know I ask again
sure now fucking me upside down.. hee..

sometime I did think tat
yes money can hav everything
yes some dun
but serious if u can choice
which one u wan?
if I'm the rich one.
will things be diff fr now?
haiz..

2008-09-21T00:19:00.002+08:00

today was super tired
at first wrk was lack
but till the last show
got a order of 31sets of fish&chips
and 14sets of chicken chop
and I was the cook for today..
sian liao..
slowly cook lo
finish cooking around 545pm

finally finish cooking and
yeah yeah.. finish wrk le.
one more day and will be my off day le..
yawn tired tired..
wan to slp le..
ciao

2008-09-17T15:36:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure y are u doing tis
but if really love her
pls dun hurt her
I know somehow she or everyone may trust u more than me
but I dun give it a damn
I know wat I do wat I say is true fr my heart
I may seem to be a fool to you
but its ok.. you will have yr karma someday..
I have enough of yr story
and I didnt wan to hear it anymore
so if u think it right to do so
jus continue yr childish thinking ba
like wat everyone say
if she's yrs she will be yrs.
if not no matter how much u put it
she wont appreciate.

2008-09-15T16:24:00.002+08:00

I wanna make love to you
Holding you all night long
I wanna make love to you
And I will not let go
’till you tell me to : )

wonderful day
wonderful night
you r the one who colours my life
with yr wonderful smiles.

2008-09-13T23:16:00.003+08:00

从你眼睛看着自己最幸福的倒影
握在手心的默契是明天的指引
无论是远近什么世纪
在天堂拥抱或荒野流离
我爱你我敢去未知的任何命运
我爱你我愿意准你来跋扈地决定世界边境

偶尔我真的不懂你又有谁真懂自己
往往两个人多亲密是透过伤害来证明
像焦虑不安我就任性
怕泄漏你怕所以你生气
我爱你让我听你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你我想亲你倔强到极限的心
我撑起所有爱围成风雨的禁地
当狂风豪雨想让你喘口气
被划破的信心需要时间痊愈
梦想牵着怀疑未来看不清
就紧紧地拥抱去传递
能量和勇气我爱你

我爱你我想去未知的任何命运
我爱你让我听你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你我想亲你倔强到极限的心
哪里都一起去一起仰望星星
一起走出森林一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己一起找到意义
让我爱你
我不要没有你我不能没有你绝不能没有你

2008-09-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

我发现站了好久

不知道要往哪走

还不想回家的我

再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我

就连我也有听过

我的快乐要被认可

委屈却没有人诉说

夜半信仰丛白剥落

拿掉防卫剩下什么

为什么脆弱时候想你更多

如果你也听说有没有想过我

想普通交朋友

还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落

要怎么附和舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说会不会相信我

对流言会附和还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多

冷漠的人就你一个

想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我

就连我也有听过

我想我宁可都沉默

其实反而显得做作

夜半信仰丛白剥落

拿掉防卫剩下什么

为什么脆弱时候想你更多

如果你也听说有没有想过

我想普通交朋友

还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说

悬着一颗心没着落

要怎么附和舍不得要无可奈何

如果你也听说会不会相信我

对流言会附和还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多

冷漠的人就你一个

想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

如果你也听说有没有想过我

想普通交朋友

还是你依然会心疼我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多

冷漠的人就你一个

想到你想起我胸口依然温柔

如果你想起我你会想到什么

2008-09-04T22:13:00.002+08:00

让我欢喜让我忧

让我欢喜的是我能看见你的
美丽的眼睛
甜蜜的笑容
让我忧的是我不能给你要的
甜言蜜语

为了爱梦一生

为了爱我会给你我能给的
如果你是我的梦我会梦一生

2008-09-04T20:02:00.006+08:00

I'm sick.. sob sob

duno y all the sudden having bad flu

during wrk in the afternoon..

baby got to wrk OT tonight

duno wat time she will be hm.

how I wish she's here.. haiz..

jus met gillyn gal for dinner

at hougang green bubble tea shop

been so long we had met up and had dinner le.

nice chatting and gal hope we meet up soon again ok

anyway yesterday after wrk

wen out for dinner with Agnes

we had buffet steamboat at marina square

haiz.. I had too much till I vomited..

but I feel better after tat.. haha

I know.. waste money right

but no choice la.

if I dun I really cant slp.

Tis is wat we had.. so full lo..

not enough staff nowdays

all hav to wrk extra tasks..

sian..

2008-09-04T09:33:00.000+08:00

我不知道为甚麽这样
爱情不是我想像
就是找不到往你的方向
更别说怎麽遗忘
站在雨里泪水在眼底
不知道该往那里去
心中千万遍不停呼唤你
不停疯狂找寻你
我是不是该安静的走开
还是该勇敢留下来
我也不知道那麽多无奈
可不可以都重来
我是不是该安静的走开
还是该在这里等待
等你明白我给你的爱
永远都不能走开
站在雨里泪水在眼底
不知道该往那里去
心中千万遍不停呼唤你
不停疯狂找寻你
我是不是该安静的走开
还是该勇敢留下来
我也不知道那麽多无奈
可不可以都重来
我是不是该安静的走开
还是该在这里等待
等你明白我给你的爱
永远都不能走开
我是不是该安静的走开
还是该勇敢留下来
我也不知道那麽多无奈
可不可以都重来
我是不是该安静的走开
还是该在这里等待
等你明白我给你的爱
永远都不能走开

2008-08-29T10:28:00.004+08:00

人们说不在乎天长地久
只在乎曾经拥有
我只想说
我在乎天长地久
也想拥有
也想和你长相厮守
这份情缘彷佛等待千年
才能与你相与不分离
在星夜里只想拥抱着你相偎相依

你可知道我的心总是

思念思念不会疲倦在等待你听见

我的黑我的白变成最灿烂的未来
就因为你是我唯一色彩

你太可爱

想你那可爱的模样
还有在你身上香香的味道
我的快乐是你
想你想的都会笑

2008-08-25T14:26:00.003+08:00

你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界就在我眼前

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生
来换你的快乐一生
不会再让你心疼

爱你,
不是因为你的美和影
我越来越爱你,
每个眼神触动我的心

我的肩膀是你专属的枕头
而你的美和笑容
是我专属的彩虹 :)

2008-08-25T13:15:00.005+08:00

back to blog after few days of my tiredness

today is my off day again.

FINALLY..

still rem on the 22th baby

bought me to watch fireworks at marina square

my first time in my life

watching fireworks so near me without

squeezing with ppl and yet I can sit down

comfortable holding baby's hands and watch.

Can I say romantic?? haha

yesterday wen to punggol marina with baby

to celebrate loy's bd.

reach hm around 12 plus

after settle everything

we slept aorund 2am if not wrong..

so tired.. yawn.

thinking back really very long we last hang out
together like before le
always had dinner together or outing.
somehow quite miss those days
duno whether is it becos tat baby hav started wrk liao
or all of us are busy with our own life.
anyway no matter wat
jus hope nothing can change the friendships we had.

tis morning baby was so tired

but no choice she got to go wrk
poor baby..haiz.. sayang sayang..

now at hm alone

no one is at hm

so quiet

so peaceful

so cooling

makes me wan to fall aslp
but no matter wat I think most pro

will take a nap. haha

tats y baby name me as slpin monster..

shall update again

ciaooooss..

2008-08-15T23:33:00.002+08:00

After how many donkey yrs back.
I forgot to take my phone to wrk again
feel so uneasy without a phone.

today wrk was super busy.
not due to not enough staff
but due to sch orders.
we hav to wrap up 195 burgers
instead of putting them in the box.

baby fetch me fr harbour front
to hougang mall joining her family for dinner
cos today was her mum's bd..
Happy bd auntie..

tml got to wrk till 8pm again sian..
hope it will rain tml.
been so hot tis few days.
I pray hard for the rain..
ti gong pls rain..

cant wait for my next trip with baby..

2008-08-15T23:11:00.011+08:00

final got the chance to load
photos for the malaysia trip..

Photos taken in jap restaurant

Dinner near our hotel..
Photos taken at Holiday Plaza
Taken in the hotel

Self Cotton Candy Machine

Singapore traffic light longest time
we hav to cross is 20sec.
wat about malaysia?
If tis in sing I think we will be having heavy traffic jam..

2008-08-12T09:42:00.002+08:00

HapPy 3mtH aNniVeRsaRy

morning..
not wrking today, having 2 days off..
going to malaysia later and going to stay there
back tml.. so excited. hee

yesterday night wen to watch movie
after wrk at amk hub
Journey to the centre of the earth.
NICE show!!! funny and exciting.
baby and I enjoy it.
especially baby.. wahaha

ok. shall go prepare liao.
ciaos guys..

2008-08-09T21:46:00.003+08:00

jus finish watching "love guru"
with baby at amk hub.
eee the show not nice de.
actually wanting to watch the mummy and
the journey to the centre of the earth
but all pack le, especially during public holiday. haiz

tis afternoon wen to sentosa
with baby and her parent.
bring them to uws and dolphin lagoon.
off day still go back not sian meh?
ok la. I enjoy myself.
hope baby they all enjoy themselves too.

sometime I really wonder
how can we trust a person?
how can we know they are speaking the truth?
Even though u know them for years
wats make u so sure tat they wont lie to u?
I been through alot.
I hav known friend for 10 years
yet I get betray.
now I really afraid of trusting
I think no matter wat I hav to trust myself
seen it myself instead of listening to wat ppl say
didnt wan anyone to spoil friendship relationship
jus beos of rumours by others ppl.
(some random tots all the sudden) hee.

ok shall get some rest
CiaOsss

2008-08-08T21:48:00.003+08:00

Tis is a song I'm into when I'm watching
超級星光大道.
I really find tis song very meaningful and touching.
I love the lyric alot.
the first video is 超級星光大道 tat day
when 林宥嘉 sang tis song.
And the second one is by 賴銘偉
The third one is the mtv sang by the original singer 蕭煌奇.
listen and see which one u guys like it.
I like 林宥嘉 de
Hope you guys like it.

2008-07-25T13:38:00.002+08:00

the raining had jus stopped.
was raining heavily jus now during lunch time
playing in the rain and
thinking back when is the last time I hav play in the rain.
hmm think quite long ago le ba.
anyway after playnig in the rain for around 15 mins
I feel tat everything hv been washing away.
hope everything hav a good start.

tonight will be meeting baby
and will be going to ikea.
hope to find some new furniture
suitable for my room.

hmm.. like very long time nv watch movies le.
I wanted to watch so many shows.
hmm.. when will I be free??
haiz.. I miss watching movie with baby.
ok la. shall go back to wrk liao.
ciao guys.

2008-07-24T08:19:00.002+08:00

WHY WHY WHY!!!
Why I cant do tis I cant do tat..
Everything I do is wrong.
Why I hav to thnk of tis and tat.
when no ones thinks about how I feel!!!

I HATE MYSELF I HATE MY LIFE
I HATE EVERYTHING!!!!

God I'm praying hard..
Pls take me away..

2008-07-23T11:40:00.002+08:00

Back to blogging again after so long
now using NCS com to blog
while waiting for baby to finish wrk. hee

wen to baby's convo yesterday
with her parent and Ah ma.
I was so excited when I reach there
(which nobody know it) hee
So many ppl can.
Oh ya it was my 1st time to convo.
didnt know it will look like tis.
took alot of photos.
see baby smiling non-stop
felt so happy.
She look beautiful when she wears her convo clothes
and smiles when taking photos.
didnt say tat to her, cos tis is who I am.
Jus wan to say.
baby I LOVE YOU~~

I'm not someone who knows how to sweet tok
if u know me well.
I rather keeps everything to myself
than speaking out.
giving surpises by not giving any clue is wat I do.
(some random tots) hee

think 5 more mins baby will be coming down le ba.
so I shall stop here
ciaos.

2008-07-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

been thinking alot after reading baby's blog.
I'm afraid is wat I can say.
but wat can I do.
I really trying my best
to do watever I can do.
too tired to think of anything le.
let nature takes it course ba.

baby..
I do love u
care about u
and trying my best for
everything little things
to let u feel tat my love for u.
but u making me getting more
and more afraid each days..

2008-07-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

HaPpY 2nD mtH AnNivErsArY

Jus came back fr toa payoh with baby
had swenson for dinner
and shop around there awhile
then head hm

1st time spending the whole night
till morning with baby yesterday.
we had movie and wen to k till 6am.
been a long time we last sang k le.

wake up around 11 plus tis morning
then head for lunch with baby's parent
visit baby's friend Jie ru
she give birth to a baby boy..
I was telling baby to give me one too.. heee

after 2 days off.
tml got to wrk again
and is my last week in lagoon.
after tat got to go back to UWS again
sian..

shall go and company baby liao.
ciaoz.

touch my heart
feel my love
All are about you

2008-07-09T10:11:00.002+08:00

back to wrk in lagoon
for 1 week.
actually onli for a few days
due to my leave and off days.
after tat I will be back
to UWS again.. haiz.

morning was raining so heavily
and it was so cooling
tat make me and baby
didnt really wan to wake up for wrk
but no choice baby jus started wrk
so didnt wan to hav mc so fast yet.
wondering when is the 1st day she will take mc

feel like hugging u tight in my arms
and I cant stop thinking of the way
u act and sound like a baby.
Jus love the way u are..

2008-07-08T09:39:00.002+08:00

lying on baby's bed
online checking blogs
actually was suppose to slp
till late afternoon de
but after baby left for wrk
ken ken was barking non stop
so I got to wake up
to bring him down for a walk
after walking for 10 min
I cant fall back to slp again.. Arrrr
So baby.. dun scold me for not slping..
I will try to slp back later ok ok..

wen to check up Amanda's blog
and she got tis video about tis little boy
who plays guitar.
he was damn good at it
I love all the song he plays.
will ask my sis to watch it.. hee
cos she was in playing guitar too..

ok.. shall try back to rest now..
or else baby will nag at me again..
ciaos..

2008-07-04T12:51:00.002+08:00

today was my off day
but still I got wake up and
company baby to wait for bus
the bus was super late today
and she hav to take a cab to wrk.
cos she hav meetin with some big bosses
if I'm not wrong.

head back to slp tats y
I didnt blog in the morning
now havin my lunch which
my mum had bought while blogging

think baby busy wrking ba
cos I msg her till now she haven reply
its lunch time now
think she mus be super duper hungry
cos morning didnt had anything
poor baby..

later I'm going to fetch baby after wrk
missing her now. hee

2008-07-03T07:52:00.002+08:00

blogging in the morning again
after company baby waiting
for her bus to wrk
last day of wrk
off tml again.. YEAH!
hope wrk today is not busy
and everything "soon soon li li"

Sorry my love tat I dun hav
a fancy car to drive u anywhere u wan
but I promise tat I will be there
by yr side to walk thousand miles.

sweet words doesn't came out
my mouth easily
doesnt means I love u no more
I love u more tat no words
can describe my love for u.

2008-07-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

Yoz back to my update again.
wrk today was slack.
not too busy due to heavy rain
in sentosa.
I f***ing dislike my AM..
she onli know how to say
and we are the one doing the stuffs.
cant she jus help up??
everything can can can.
totally hate her fr top to bottom..

after wrk today
meet up with Baby, Darling, Aloy & Xiao Cat
we had roti prata at boon keng there
had some chat with them
especially darling.
very long nv c her liao..

Baby bought me a new wallet fr esprit
and cotton on slippers.
thanks baby.. muack.

ok la.
shall go now.
baby say I nv muack her
when I type muack in tis blog..
night everyone..

2008-07-02T07:49:00.002+08:00

morning guys
surprise tat I wake up so early to blog??
cos baby stays over at my place last night
so I wake up to company her
to wait for bus to go for wrk.
hope it not really far fr my place to her wrk ba.

yesterday was baby 1st day of wrking.
and she was saying she become "大人" le
after slacking for so long.
she was complaining tat she was bored at wrk
cos all she do is staring at the com and reading
some IT stuffs till the end of the wrk.

really love the way when she tok
looks like a "baby"
feel like hugging her tight always
wherever we go. (thinking shall we glue together) hee.

5 more min and I need to go
prepare for my stuff and my turn
to go for wrk le.
haiz.. my wrk getting more tiring each day
really feel like slacking at hm doing nothing
than to go wrk and face those ppl
who onli know how to use mouth
instead of their hands.
wat can I say.
they all jus higher pose than us. haiz.

how I wish I can hav alot of $$$.. (dream on) wahaha
ciao.. shall update again..

2008-06-30T13:09:00.002+08:00

sorry my friends.
I'm really too lazy to update my blog recently.
and due to too many shits around me
make me dun hav the mood to update.

but still I wont forget and
like to thanks my baby
giving me a wonderful day on my bd.

baby starting wrk tml.
hope she will get use to the wrking life
after a long hoilday.. haha

and to YOU who likes to read my blog so much.
I know tat YOU always bad mouth about ppl and now
there's ppl around YOU bad mouth YOU too
and dun point finger to anyone of us
cos tat person is closer to YOU
jus tat YOU didnt know
tot wat bro bro
in the end she goes around say words about YOU.
YOU will hav YOUR karma.
dun always think $$$ can buy friendship or love..
those ppl jus becos of $$ they will do anything in front of YOU
but behind YOUR back. YOU didnt know wat they do.
so fuck off and think wat YOU should do.

2008-06-19T14:55:00.002+08:00

been getting lazy each day.
jus wan to rot at hm or at baby's place.
haha. its my fav hobby..
slp eat slp eat
think I'm getting fatter. haiz..
how to slim down like tat..

tml is my big day..
should I say tat??
cos I'm 27 yr old le leh..
but tml will be diff
cos baby will be celebrating with me
hee.. so excited..
everything seem to be so secretive ..

baby wen out to prepare stuffs for tml
and I cannot follow.
so I'm going to stay at hm
till night time then meet her.

so bored now.
playing online games again..
hee.. ciao.

2008-06-10T22:04:00.005+08:00

This the shoe baby bought for me..
and tis the necklace I bought for baby..
baby say she love it!!! hee

jus finish making my strawberry choco
and my jelly for baby.
haiz kind of disappointed cos my jelly
was kind of hard due to
wrong measurement of water
it become hard.. sob sob
and my strawberry choco looks so messy
but hope its taste good..

tis is the things I make.. haiz..
I know kind of si pai in the look la.
dun ee me or laugh le.
I will do it better next time de

Its raining heavily out there
when baby is on her way here
da bao dinner for me and my family
so wei da.
I'm touch baby..
thanks..

I'm totally in love with 魏秀清 wei xiuqing.(baby)
hee baby I know how
to write yr chinese name le la. wahaha

2008-06-10T13:15:00.002+08:00

meet up with baby
xiao cat & loy at ps last night after wrk
bought my 1st mth anni gift fr couple lab
and baby give me surprise by buying
everlast shoe for me
I was really surpise la and
I hope baby really love the necklace I bought..
anyway its our advance gift.
actual date is on the 12th of june.
we give it early cos we will be clubbing
on tat day hee..

stays over baby's hus last night
and tis morning baby makes breakfast for me again
loves to eat the foods she cooks.
makes me so full in the morning..
baby slpin while I'm blogging hee
later going out once baby wakes up.

shall blog again..
ciao.. :)

2008-06-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

today baby wake up
together with me and wen to wrk with me
since morning 830am till I finish wrk
is around 8pm le.
during my wrking
baby wen out to buy lunch and snacks for me
I'm touch and heartache.

Baby..
Thanks for being with me..
Love you deep deep.. hee

tonight I'll be staying over baby's hus.
to company baby..
nights everyone..

2008-06-08T00:59:00.002+08:00

feeling tired stress and piss
with the wrk I'm having now
so many things to settle
hate it when ppl only know
how to tok instead of doing the job.
I hate taking shit wrk.
but wat can I do?? haiz..

thanks baby for always be here with me
company me.
fetching me at wrk.
bought me m&m chocolates..
making AI XIN breakfast for me.

thanks alots baby..
I really appreciate wat u give
I LOVE U..

jus had my off day yesterday.
but yet I feel like I'm been wrking
tro out the weeks.
so sian wrking
but no choice got to wrk to earn money..
I wish.. money can fall down fr the sky.. heee
ok la. shall offline now and company baby
ciao...

2008-06-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

u end yr tuition early
finally got to hear yr voice.
and I realise tat I really miss you.
I cried.. duno y.
my tears jus fall when I heard yr voice.
didnt wan to let u know
so I hav to push the phone away.
I know I shouldnt cry
cos there's still days like today will happen
I hav to get use to it.
I hav to..

I hav to..

2008-06-03T21:45:00.002+08:00

back to my blog once again..
didnt wan to blog at first
but tis is the onli way I can say out
how I feel.
mayb I will feel better after saying..
Mayb..

didnt had my breakfast due to..
thinking I can had my breakfast
and lunch together..
didnt had my lunch due to msg she had sent
and toking to her on the phone.
didnt had my dinner due to the mood I having now.
really dun feel like eating..
yes.. I'm hungry..
can feel my stomach having diff kind of sound.
but.. I jus dun feel like eating..

since the days we met
till we r together till now
we met everyday.
today is the 1st night tat
I hav to live without u beside me
without hearing yr smiling
yr voice yr scent yr hugs and kisses..
jus becos u had tuition till late..
I know both of us hav to go tro tis
cos once u start wrk
we might not be seeing each other so offen too..

how I wish
I wish.
I can hug u tight right now.
telling u tat I'm so afraid of losing u
how much I love u.
love u more everyday..

sorry baby..
didnt mean to keep it fr u.

"LOVE DIE U"
(AI SI NI)

2008-05-28T01:39:00.002+08:00

back!!! for updating my blog..
being lazy, tired and
most of all spending my times with baby..
seriously I rather spending times with her
than updating my blog la.. haha

baby been giving me surprise
at my wrk place and yes baby I'M TOUCH!!
Thanks for the Rojak, spring chicken & Ikea meatballs
Thanks for everything you do!!
and always be there for me when I need u..
BABY I LOVE YOU!!

jus came back fr mostafa
with baby, darling and my lovely sis.
duno why all of us jus enjoying going there.

sian tml still got to wrk
and finally after tml is my off day.
tml night baby will be coming over my hus to stay
hee.. love slpin beside baby..

ok la.. shall stop here
and go to bed and wait for baby's calls.
ciao..

2008-05-17T10:56:00.003+08:00

morning morning
once again baby wake me up
for breakfast tat she cooked..

Crab meats, egg and garlic bread.

baby says "wo bei ta chong huai le"
I also think so. hee
now baby cutting nails for me.
so xin fu.. wahaha.

2008-05-17T00:48:00.002+08:00

jus reach baby's hus
after watching movie with
her bro, sister in law, and friends
together there's 10 of us.
we hav watch Chocolate..
hmm.. I can say not bad. nice show.
and yap staying over her hus tonight
miss hugging her
miss slpin by her side

tis morning before I start wrk
wen to harbour front Medical Raffles
to hav another copy
for my vaccine injection report
cos my company they need it
and they hav lost my old one
in the end the staff there say they dun hav my record
Faint.. mean I hav to inject another time??!!!
jus to get the report??!!
No choice and YES
I hav to inject.. sian la
not tat I afraid of injection
jus tat I hate the side effect..

today wrk was suck
really piss me off and
so stressful..

everything undone
everything jus everywhere..
sian.
lucky tml opening I'm not wrking. phew..

ok.. shall go bath liao
or else baby dun allow me to slp on her bed.. hee
good night.. slp tight and wet dreams.. hee
ciao..

2008-05-14T20:11:00.003+08:00

Jus reach baby's hus not long ago
baby's injure her leg.. haiz poor her
bought some chocolate to cheer her up.
hope she likes it.. hee

yesterday wen to sing k
with baby, hs and jamie in town

today wrk was super lag
not much ppl due to raining day.
how I wish I can stay hm with baby.. yawn..

tml is my last day
wrking in dolphin lagoon
cos I'll be wrking in new store
in underwater world..
hope everything alright in the new store..

2008-05-13T09:07:00.003+08:00

MORNING!!
jus finish eating my breakfast
tat baby make it for me..
Its damn nice la.
especially the egg..
seriously.. its better than mac big breakfast..
after eating I'm so bao bao la.
resting awhile then later going out
for baby interview le.

Tis is the my 2nd AI XIN breakfast
fr my baby..

First toast come with Cheeseee..yum yum

And tis come with tuna..

Thanks baby
for waking up so early
to make breakfast for me

my heart is filling up with yr sweetest love.

2008-05-13T02:30:00.002+08:00

FINALLY SHE SAY YES!!!
I LOVE MY BABY KAT!!
OUR STORY STARTS 12-05-08..
and NEVER END..

2008-05-13T02:11:00.003+08:00

jus now wen liquid kitchen
with baby, xiao cat, aloy & ah yang
for dinner..
first time having dinner there..
the foods there was quite limited
think most pro ppl will be chilling there
instead of having dinner there ba.

after dinner baby, ah yang and I
wen to mustafa
baby bought alot of things
most pro are items for both of us
like 2 new toothbrushes
2 new towels, 2 new cups..
and baby bought boxers for me
and some foods for tml breakfast
baby making breakfast for me again.
so happy.. hee..

tml off again.
going to company baby for
job interview tml morning..

gtg and rest early le.
cos tml need to wake up early..
nights.. ciao..

2008-05-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

不想失去你

你来的时候伴随山茶的清芬
你走的时候从不忘亲吻我心门
你在的时候给我狂热的青春
没你的日子我习惯为你留盏灯
这般生活我陶醉已久
这般情怀我蹉跎太多
我真的不想失去真的不愿失去
真的不能失去你
我一再努力寻觅一再刻意接近
一再探求情爱真谛
我真的不想失去真的不愿失去
真的不能失去你
发自内心告诉我你不会逝去
日升月落风起云涌转眼空
当我想起红尘瞬变心底好难过
但愿你能是我的最终

2008-05-11T01:19:00.002+08:00

jus got hm
lucky mummy didnt say anything
about staying out tis few days.

now toking to baby on line
at the same time I'm updating my blog.. hee

love staying over baby's hus
rotting with her in the room
hugging , watching show
bringin ken ken for walk with baby
everything we do
I jus feel so xin fu. hee

wen to watch movie with baby
in amk hub. "wats happen in vegas"
nice show. I love it. hee
so many shows coming out
tat I wans to watch.
and baby promise to watch with me. hee

after a long off days.
tml gotto back to wrk again
sian..
hope everything will be fine.
ok la. shall concentrate toking
to baby online liao..

ciao..

2008-05-09T01:53:00.002+08:00

jus reach baby's hus not long ago
after having some chilling at bliss
with baby, eric, aloy, xiao cat and ah yang

today was super rest day for me
rotting at baby hus for the whole day
so shiok la.
tml got to wake up early
and back hm to bring
mummy they all go sentosa.
ya sentosa again haha
even when I'm not wrking.
I think sentosa is my sec hm lo faint..

ok la. shall stop here.. ciao

2008-05-08T11:18:00.002+08:00

morning everybody..
yawn.. wake up so early
and updating my blog..

was not wrking for 3days.
today tml and sat
suppose to wrk today
but new store which I'm supoose to wrk
was not ready yet
so was force to take leave..
but anyway I dun mind taking leave la
cos I can company baby for tis 3 days..hee

last night stays over baby hus
tis morning wake up and had breakfast
with baby and her dad.
now doing nothing
rotting at her hus with her.
thinking wat shall we do coming later noon and night..

tml bringing mummy daddy and grandma
together with baby
going to sentosa for leg spa massage..
shall update again..
ciao..

2008-05-06T16:37:00.003+08:00

blogging while I'm at wrk now.
cool huh?? actually no la
jus too free and toking to baby
on the phone now while
she listening to her fav song "Low"

my baby keep complaining
tat I nv say anything good about her
as I tot sometime things jus keep
inside heart can le ma
ok I shall say something about her

Baby.. seriously I love to look at yr eyes
yr eyes really look nice.
and I love yr smile
whenever u smile, it will bring me smile also.
and I can c yr dimple. hee
and I love to hear u call me baby.
so call me often ok..

hee. trying to be mushy here..
baby happy?? ok la. gtg back to wrk le.
cant wait to hav dinner tonight with u
and my parent.. ciao..

2008-05-05T16:47:00.003+08:00

I'm totally crazy loving you
head over heel
having u in my mind every min every sec
miss hugging u tight
kissing yr lips
slping with u by my side

baby.
I'm sorry for causing u feelin guilty
I'm sorry tat I cant do anything to stop
u feeling bad or stress over tis.
but baby.. I promise.
I will be here, right here jus for u

Really hurts to see u thinking so much
yet I'm the one who causing tis.
jus like a knife cutting deep down my heart.
wish tat I can turn back time
tat I speak out earlier
about my feeling for u
and things wont be happenin like now

Pls ..
let my hugs be the one keeps yr troubles away
my kisses be the one making u smiles.
My life be the one brighten up yr days..
lastly.
I love u tats for sure..

2008-05-05T16:09:00.003+08:00

finally back to update again.
been out till late tis few days.
slp late wake up early.
really not enough slp. but..
becos of u. worth it.

seriously after so many days
I really duno wat to blog le.
so many things to recall.
Can I skip??

shall blog about today.

anyway I'm not wrking today
staying over baby's hus last night
wake up around 11plus
was hungry and baby cook for me
egg with cheese inside..
sound simple but I jus love it
imaging cooking with love in it?? haha
baby says she is da xiao jie
she nv cook for everyone de.
I feel so xin fu.. :)

My Ai Xin breadfast fr baby.

now rotting in her room
using her lap top
waiting for her to come back
after her tuition.
then we will meet up eric and sharon
for k later at hougang plaza.

ok shall take a nap
will keep myself update ok..
ciaos..

2008-05-01T15:55:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night after wrk.
meet nai keith lex, lex's sis (sharon) and mabel
for dinner at jack place..
already forgot when is the last time I
hav step into jack place..
think a few yrs back ba...

Really feel like singing
so head to sing at k box till 3am
had a wonderful night
tat I wont forget.
and wish tat times will stop at tat moment.

woke up around 1pm.
had my breakfast + lunch
which my mum bought
rot awhile in front of the tv.
play with milo.
and now. I feel tat
my eyes are closing.. haha
think its time for me to slp early.
shall update again..

happy labour day..

2008-04-29T23:26:00.002+08:00

If your heart's not in it

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
(And there's nothing that I can do To stop me losin' you)
I can't make you change your mind (If your heart's not in it)

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me
I'd do But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

2008-04-29T23:10:00.002+08:00

Wait for you

[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
And I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
But you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
Oooooo
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

*Repeat Chorus

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
That is not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

*Repeat Chorus

I'll Be Waiting.

2008-04-29T19:55:00.001+08:00

傻孩子

看着你无暇的表情

我猜不透真实你的心

一直冷静

却还是走不出这秘密

好孤寂

我开始失去了勇气

而你却好像在游戏

我假装清醒

看清你的心

终于我选择了离去

你像个孩子一样的被我看穿

在你面前我试着隐瞒

所有过去全都变成伤害

我像个傻子一样的被你出卖

一字一句都要我承担

到了最后我选择分开

2008-04-28T22:30:00.001+08:00

Song lyric for u..
you should know who u r..

Jus so you know

I shouldn't love you
But I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
But I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know
How to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know
How to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back, I realize it was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...
Been waiting here...

2008-04-28T21:46:00.002+08:00

sometimes I really regret
for thinking too much on
unnecessarily things.
Y cant jus do wat I'm feeling at tat time.
but think twice.
mayb its good to think
cos who knows u might
accidentally hurts someone
due to "yi shi de cong tong"
anyway after saying out
yes.. I feel better..
didnt get anything in the end.
but.. nvm la.
jus treat tat "you yuan wu fen" lo

happy lasting to u and her.

2008-04-27T22:49:00.008+08:00

Today and tml was my off day
as for today I'm staying at hm the whole day
till in the afternoon..
mummy ask me to help her
to make dessert.
so she ask me to do tis oh neh oh neh.
which I love to eat.
while she busy making her bobo chacha..

Flour dough.. with green colouring..
black sugar..
Put in the black sugar..
Roll into a ball like tis..
Put into boiling water..
Once cook. put with coconut.
YEAH!! Its done.. nice??? hee..

didnt took any photo of the bobo chacha
cos I was busy eating my oh neh oh neh..
heee

sometimes it good to stay hm.
doing things like chatting with yr family
pack up yr room
play with yr dog
tis wat I do today.. hee

tml is my off day..
sian duno wat to do again..
think I shall stay hm again..
but tis time I think
I'm going to slp for the whole day..wahaha

2008-04-25T21:46:00.007+08:00

Today wrk is still ok..
jus piss off with part timers.
thinking wats on their mind.
are they here to wrk or chit chat
spending times here and take pay.
hav to keep asking them to wrk wrk and wrk.

after wrk wen for jogging
I really hav to push myself to jog no matters
how tired I am.
once I stop I wont know when I will start jogging again.
now staying at hm..
doing nothing.
feel tired but yet not slping.
think after tis I shall starts my les movies again..
haha..

Yesterday was raining heavily
in the morning at wrk..
Swim with dolphin session hav been cancel
gossips with agnes and joanne
since there's nothing much to do.
in the afternoon rains stopped.
but in the late afternoon agnes heard something
and she shouted.. the tree is falling..
then all of us was so kpo
wen up to see..
and tis how its look like ..

Agnes trying her best to pull off the tape..
Finally done..
fallen tree at the smoking area..

Agnes under the fallen tree.. haha

wed night wen out with Kat & eric..
wen to chill at summer breeze..
before tat we pass by the see
the new shopping centre at downtown east
which is call EHUB..
and saw tis inside the shopping mall.
after chilling enough at the seaside.
kat give us a ride hm.

The ferry wheel in EHUB..

2008-04-25T21:38:00.003+08:00

I cant believe it..
tis 2 guys which I didnt know
who are they are fighting over me
in facebook for the pass 2hrs.. faint..

Majed Bn Fahad bought you for $12,874, earning you $619. 2 hours ago

Aamer Bn Fahad bought you for $11,598, earning you $558. 2 hours ago

Majed Bn Fahad bought you for $10,449, earning you $503. 2 hours ago

Aamer Bn Fahad bought you for $9,413, earning you $453. 2 hours ago

Majed Bn Fahad bought you for $8,480, earning you $408. 2 hours ago

Aamer Bn Fahad bought you for $7,640, earning you $368. 2 hours ago

Majed Bn Fahad bought you for $6,883, earning you $331. 2 hours ago

Aamer Bn Fahad bought you for $6,200, earning you $298. 2 hours ago

Majed Bn Fahad bought you for $5,586, earning you $269. 2 hours ago

Aamer Bn Fahad bought you for $5,033, earning you $242. 2 hours ago

Majed Bn Fahad bought you for $4,534, earning you $218. 2 hours ago

Aamer Bn Fahad bought you for $4,085, earning you $197. 2 hours ago

Majed Bn Fahad bought you for $3,680, earning you $177. 2 hours ago

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Majed Bn Fahad bought you for $2,987, earning you $144. 2 hours ago

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Aamer Bn Fahad bought you for $2,185, earning you $105. 2 hours ago

Majed Bn Fahad bought you for $1,969, earning you $95. 2 hours ago

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Will they stop here???

2008-04-23T21:19:00.002+08:00

Back to update
after so long. haha
lazy lazy..
and nothing much to update also.

been watching cheryl's blog
for some Les & gay movies.
those movies tat u wont see it in singapore..
Of cos la. jus like tat cable tv jus shown a 5min
mtv with 2 gals kissing. and kanna fine.. haha

I MUST KEEP FIT..
ARHHH.. I feel I'm getting fatter..

today I very guai..
didnt go out and stays hm for the whole day.
haiz.. I feel bored la.
but wat to do..

tml got to wrk again.. sian

2008-04-04T23:10:00.011+08:00

yesterday wen to ctiy hall to
hav jap foods dinner
with clarice keith keiko agnes amanda and yiqi
had chat and lot of laugh during the dinner..

after dinner wen to play to meet nai and eric
yesterday play having mambo & R&B songs
but all the songs sound trance to me
boring night
after tat we had supper at maxwell market
nai and me was high last night
so both of us was having alot of craps.
haha jus hav so much fun toking to her.
reach hm around 4am
sweet dreams..

today was my off day also
ofcos la. after clubbing till so late
I will die if I wrk. haha
meet huishan & gillyn for lunch at city hall again
but tis time we had chicken rice..
hmm think back since when is the day I had
chicken rice.. hee

back hm.
rest awhile
play with milo.
nap again.

life jus so simple
but yet complicated at times too..

2008-04-02T21:51:00.003+08:00

after wrk today
meet up with agnes and kat and her friend's chris.
had pepper lunch for dinner at clake quay.
then head to hav my tattoo done on right arm.
Kat and chris wen odd first..
shall c them tml at play..

I love my new tattoo..
wahahaha so happy
finally I got it..

thanks agnes for the company

sHhh.. not everyone knows yet.
especially my parent..

LifE &

DeaTh

finally tml is my off day.
not 1 day but 2 days
so meaning.
tml after clubbing at play I can rest at hm
and slp tro out till next day..
wahaha

2008-03-25T01:23:00.002+08:00

having another tattoo
on my wrist
by end of tis mth..
but haven think of design yet..
any recommend?

2008-03-24T02:02:00.005+08:00

feeling all alone?
no ones understand you?

To be seen but untouchable?

no matters how hard you try?

2008-03-24T01:56:00.002+08:00

trying our best to be there for
someone u care
but sometimes becos of
small little things
will blown away the goods.
jus becos all of us is too emotional?

let it be.
dun explain
dun care
dun bother
be it.

2008-03-24T01:48:00.002+08:00

At tis hr tis timing
I'm still awake
instead of lying on the bed
I'm here blogging??

So many things on mind
Wat shall I do?
Mayb yes mayb no?
Shall I care or jus leave it wat it wan to be??
Share or keep it?

Life is damn complicated
too many things to be done
too much to take

hav u ever tot of leaving tis world?

bring my soul out of my body..
clear my mind clear my memories.
nothing shall be kept in my life story..

2008-03-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

Never Let You Go

The rain just never seems to bring
The joy I feel the same.
Everlasting pain of my loss remains.

My heart can’t seem to learn to part
The hold you left you mark.
All that I dreamed of now it seems so stark.

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

The way you left me on the train.
I don’t know what to say.
I remember everything of that day

I can’t believe we’d never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset our one last romance

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.