In the morning around 10 plus was raining in sentosa.. Me n yvonne were taking red line bus to UWS cos Razak not wrking today there's no driver to sent burgers there.. Yvonne need to stay at UWS for the course.. So I wen back to dolphin alone.. It was raining so heavy tat I call Vin to bring umbrella for me when I reach there.. But he makes me so pai sei.. Imaging dolphin lagoon got so many umbrella he onli bring one out.. To cover me n himself.. I really pai sei lo.. Somemore there got alot of students.. For the 13opm show.. so angry with indian ppl again.. They r like hungry ghost.. Order alot of things.. Somemore tot wat machine cooking can straight away come out.. I shit also need to wait.. Haiz.. N ya there's tis stupid idiot india auntie.. So piss off with her.. She ordered some foods so she came back to collect.. I hav keep repeating the same things to her tat ask her to hold on awhile the foods are ready.. Jus waiting for jessica to bring out.. The auntie push me again n say that she really hungry need to eat.. N I was like wat the f.. N I shout back to her tat ask her whether she understand english.. I said the foods are ready.. Jus wait awhile.. But I think she dun understand also.. until she saw the foods which jessicabrig out..Haiz.. so tired serving them.. Dunno y they r born like tat.. Anyway after wrk wen to PS to meet my sis.. We walk to heeren fr PS.. I bought a mic for my pc.. N guess wat its so cool.. n its cost me $6 onli.. cheap sia.. Now I'm using it to tok in msn instead of typing haha..After tat we walk back to PS again.. N I bought something for her.. Hope she like it.. I bought a small pouch for my Mp3 n present for my Elaine gal.. I bought a black tie for for D&D.. n it fr carefour n its cost $10.. then we wen hm after tat n reach hm around 10 I think.. then bath n eat then online chatting till now blogging then later sleeping.. Yea tml off.. so happy.. hehe

Today having some course for our new cashier stuff.. Haiz actually thinking to take MC but Cindy one of my sup keep saying No.. say not enough staffs.. Today I wrk with him again.. So sick n tired of him.. Ya I know most of my wrking times I hav to face him.. But really cannot stand him even sit also cannot le.. Haiz.. Dunno how to say him la.. So piss off with him.. Really hate mans.. After wrk wen to play badminton with jessica, swee ying, sharon mei n one of her friend at puggol cc.. Me n jess took a cab at harbour front.. It take quite sometime to hire a cab.. N wat there's traffic jam.. Haiz we reach there around 730.. We onli play for 30 mins.. Haiz.. After tat Sharon mei company me to hav my dinner.. Now I'm home.. Yea.. Finally I get my pay le.. But but.. Haiz.. Still need to pay alot of things.. After deduct I also left not much le.. Sob sob.. I miss her.. Miss her hugs..

Yesterday night was happy cos she's staying at my hus.. But she doesn't seem to be happy cos I think she hav been quarreling with someone esle.. Hurts to c her like tat but I cannot do anything.. Konw tat she's hungry n ask whether she wans to eat noodle n I can cook for her.. N yes she say.. Wu gui was at my hus too.. Know tat wu gui still love her.. But anyway I did tok to wu gui.. After finish eating she wen out with wu gui awhile.. When she came back she still quarreling over the phone.. Its around 1 plus le.. Thinks she tired too .. But she keeps forcing herself to be awake..After tat I ask her up to bed to slp.. Know she fall asleep le but wan to make sure she sleep well.. I push her slightly n she was like keep saying.. "ya wat" "ya wat"..after awile she close her eyes again.. she keep repeating the same words.. my heart was so painful.. I onli can keep inside my heart.. Cover her with blanket to let her slp more comfortable.. I decide to move down the floor n slp.. Didn't slp well though but happy tat she was sound asleep.. When wake up tis morning.. Saw her sleeping..really miss the times when we slp all day tro.. After all I'm happy..

Been to boon keng to hav dinner.. Had roti prata for dinner.. Order a dinosaur milo which me n her use to drink.. N a maggie soup she use to eat.. Last a paper prata we use to share.. Miss the times when she around.. we always were go there for supper.. Now... nvm at least we been there.. NI still got my memories with her there..

the mickey she got for me, n the Astro boy I bought for her..

tis our babies.. But now on the bed onli with me.. No more her..

the last n onli pic we taken on bus..

Been to East Coast.. To where we use to hav our waffer.. To the bridge that we been.. The mac we use to sit.. But no more together.. onli me alone or u with her..

Went to CCK today to c her.. Saw her n I feel so happy.. But I cannot hug her or really go close to her.. Didn't dare to let her c me.. Dunno y..Happy to c her but sad n hurt tat can't get close to her.. Told her tat I been there.. But she act as if she didn't know anything.. I really dunno wat to do.. 4 days fr 19-3-05

Today is the third day u r away with me.. Miss u lots n still waiting..
fr 19-03-05

Today was super tired.. Didn't slp well tis few nights.. Had a bad dream n good dream last night.. Lets me say about good dream first.. I dreamt tat she was slpin beside me.. I was hugging her fr behind which I use to.. But when I wake up she's not around.. Its hurts me...I really wish tat dream will nv wake up.. I wish to stay in tat dream forever.. The bad dream is I dreamt tat she hav leave me forever.. she say tat she won't be in love with me again in her life.. She say she rather find someone who dun love her at all rather than me.. I was crying in the dream.. But when I wake up n I realise tat I was really crying.. Without her in my life is really miserable.. Wish tat she can come back to mi..

My wrk for today..
11am show was quite lack.. Doing kiosk today.. but comes to 1.30pm show was super busy.. Somemore 1.3pm photos got pro.. Haiz the last pic cannot be display on the screen n print out.. So pai sei to keep asking the An Mo lady to wait for so long..In the end the photo still cannot be send so i ask her to wait fr the 3.30pm show n while I try to print out her pic.. Lucky she was patient not like some of the customer will F u till u dunno where u stay.. So since she so nice I decided to give her a drink.. So I was like asking her Coke, Spite or ice lemon tea? ( Staff can drink for free) But in the end she ask for diet coke in the can which we need to pay for it.. Haiz No choice die die must give.. Today really not my day.. 3.30pm show hav started but still cannot find her pic.. So for tat show We using instant cam to take instead of digital cam.. ($5 diff n the size) I was like not going to give up I keep trying the digital cam.. N FINALLY its wrks again haiz.. N guess wat.. The An Mo lady pic was out.. haiz.. So for the 5.30 show we use back digital cam le.. N lucky everything is ok.. Now waiting for tml le.. Got to wrk one more day then I can off le.. Haiz tml wrking with someone again.. So sian..

There was a time in my life
When I open my eyes n there you are
You are more than a dream
I can't reach out to touch you
Gal that was long ago
chorus
*There are something that I guess I never know
When you love someone
You gotta learn to let them go
When I dream about you
Thats when everything alright
Here in my arms
Here next to me forever
When I dream about you
Gal you nv go away
Just close my eyes
Wait for my dreams
Cos I'll still love
Loving you

How can I get you to see
that I'm faling apart
Since you been gone
I can never be sure
I can never let go your love
that much too strong
repeat chorus* x2

U say u will accept Jay in order I move on.. U wan me to hate u.. U wan us to remain as friends.. Yes I feel hurt to know tat u accept jay.. BUt thats the onli thing I can do.. I onli can say I wil move on but will still waiting for u to come back.. Wishing for tat day.. Jus saw the photoframe u given me for the anniversary.. The photo is the one we taken at jurong bird park.. The one u making a funny face with parrots on yr hands.. Its make my heart pain again.. I miss u so badly.. Really.. While bathing.. Everything flash back in my mind again.. The places we been. The photos we taken all in my mind..Now I onli hav all tis memories with me..without U..

Now I'm wrking but really hav no mood in wrking now.. Was drunk last night.. I didn't knw wat I'm typing to wier n he's gf Elaine.. I know I did sen them msg.. But think I hav type wrongly.. Having headache tis morning when coming to wrk.. Burn my hand jus now cos today wrking as cook.. But I dun feel any pain.. Mayb its becos of her ba.. Miss her so badly.. today is the first day we become friends.. She say mayb tis is better for us.. Didn't feel like going out with others.. Feel like being alone n wait for her to come back to me.. I dunno how long I hav to wait.. But I really hope tat she will come back to me.. I really love her.. I know I hav hurt her so deeply tat now she's afraid to be with me.. I'm sorry..

U told me tat u needs times to go over the fear I given u now.. U say the hurt u hav is diff fr wat I'm having.. I can tell u tat I use to hav the hurts before tat wat u hav now.. N its two times.. But in the end I still accept u cos I love u n willing to trust u again while we r back together.. But I dunno y u can't.. I jus dun understand y my hurts to u is always so deep.. As if the one u giving me is not.. U ask me to hate u if I wan.. U should know I won't cos I love u.. really love u more than anyone.. I try to hate u but in the end ending up hurting myself.. I really tired..

Dunno y my tears keep dropping whenever I think of u.. I'm so tired le but its still dropping. I miss u yes alot n deeply.. How I wish u r here n I can hug u tightly.. My mind are so mean to me.. Keep reflect me the days we are toghther.. The words u say to me n all.. Make me dunno how to stop my tears..Still rem when we jus got patch back u say " U wish to be with me, Ask me to trust u again, N say tat now u n her remain jie n di won't go back togther le n forever u r mine.." But I dunno y now all the sudden u say" U dun wish to play me out, ask me to give u times to accept me again, saying tat she's importan to u now cos she dun control, telling me tat I can find someone better than u all sort of stuffs.." I know tat soon or later yr memories with me will be cover by her.. But I can say tat mine memories with u r always deep down in my heart which I can nv replace or erase..take care of yrself..

I'm hurt dunno wat to do.. But I know u already make up yr mind.. Know tat she's importan than me.. N u r more happy when u r with her.. I know I'm useless onli know how to cry.. I cried the whole night even now i am...But tats wat I can do now to make myself better.. Anyway all the best to u n her.. Tks for the days u giving me.. I'll always rem it in my heart no matters its hurt or happiness.. I won't forget.. I swear.. Take care

Today wrk dunno shoud be lack or busy to me.. Got some pro during the school groups order.. Vin having a half day MC.. So I'm doing cook n photograher at the same time.. Around 5 plus Elaine came down to help cos boss afraid tat we cannot cob.. Of cos lah with one lack sup n one kan cheong sup haiz.. Anyway she come down also dunno for wat.. Think all she can do is helping us wash the floor ba.. Haha.. After wrk wen to hav dinner at harbour front food court with Elaine, Jessica n Doreen... Doreen was force to go.. haha I'm the one forcing her.. cos I think jessica will be happy to hav dinner with her.. After dinner we company doreen to wait for cab n jessica say sharon my mei is coming down to meet us.. So when sharon reach we decided to play pool.. After tat we wen hm..Elaine will be staying at my hus cos she wans me to help her download some songs in her hp.. Haiz tml wrking with someone I really piss off again.. Feel so sian.. anyway got to stop here.. Going to help tat auntie doher stuff liao.. Take care

me n rain at kbox

me in kbox

Hi guys.. I'm back to type my blog again.. Jus came back fr KL trip a fews days ago.. Been off for two days.. Going to start wrk tml le.. Sob sob.. Feel so tired to wrk now.. Feel like asking back to wrk in UnderWater World.. Quite piss off with someone in Dolphin Lagoon.. Really dun mind tat I need to wrk late.. But I know they won't allow me to go back there for te moment.. But really so sian wrking with somebody, even u heard his voice u will feel stress..Haiz.. Anyway Take care everyone

Me n Baby RaIn

hi.. story starts again.. toda wrk was lack.. But there's a new part timer name edwin.. He's doing fine for the first day.. But still dunno the coming days.. After wrk wen to Orchard with Yvonne N jessica.. We took a bus 65 there.. wen to shop n hav dinner.. After dinner we went to Hereen for picture takin.. but half way tro my dad call n say my mum in hospital.. So I rush to there.. N find out tat my mum got urine infection.. Doc ask her to stay but she inisist to go hm.. then we hav no choice but to let her hm.. I'm quite piss off with someone.. I dunno y I jus wish tat I dun need to explain to her anymore.. After all hav already take leave on friday to company my mum to check up.. N I make sure she eats all the medicine.. got to go now.. cya..

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