after bathing n cleaning.. more clear..

My 2nd tattoo on my right leg..its in the middle of te back leg.. Do it today after my wrk..

tis is the cat at the tattoo shop.. Look cute n chubby right.. I notice something he love slpin on bags.. Once I leave my bag there.. he was lyin down there le.. damn fast..

I think there's some pro with my head..
Keep having bad headache..
damn pain till I keep beating..
nose bleedin today..
dunno y..

Carol mei say..
its becos I hav not enough slp..
n smokin badly n drinking lots..
But sorry.. I cant stop..

Sorry to sweety also..
I know u dun lke I smoke..
But I really cannot quit..
N for the taggin..
I know u cares..
dun wish to c me cries..
I know.. thanks sweety..

I think Don can do better than me..
or esle she wont fall for her..

Thanks for all my love ones..
Thanks for being here for me..
thanks for entertain me to make me laugh..
Thanks to zeny my lazy boss..
stopin me for doin stupid stuffs..
Or else I dunno how many cuts I hav.. haha

having tattoo next mth..
Ease my pain..
cant wait..haha
Singin on staff night..
dunno how.. haiz..
think will sure cry while singin tat song..

I miss her..
Iknow I shouldnt..
but I cant stop thinkin of her..

你要的不是我

怎么能忘时间多长
快乐吗想代替你回答
你知道吗走了好远
我才能去面对
这份牵挂沉默伤悲
你要的不是我
心碎的失去轮廓
曾经给你的感动
只是情绪的波动
能给的不是我
放任你沉溺自由
掩饰不了我的笨拙
就连说话都会颤抖
我被遗忘在
你遗忘的角落
我被遗忘在你遗忘的角落

Becos of u..
I start to love cats..
Becos of u..
I start to go back to wat I use to be..
becos of u..
I willy to give up anything..
jus becos of u..

miss sleepin beside u..

dinner at east coast.. Fetch u back fr HK.. memories still around..

Our last meeting n outing..

Miss yr smiles laughter.. Lots n badly..

tis cat which always turn out when I'm having dinner.. She is pregnant.. cool.. hehe.. she love scratching..can c how she enjoy..

hotdogs n puff for her dinner.. then bought can food for her after I know she's pregnant..

pics taken at pasir ris park..When can I ever wen deep down to the sea??

I know she's happy wat she hav now..
U dun need to tell me..

*Don
No point saying sorry to me..
Wat hav happen already happen..
Things wont change back again..
she's all yrs..
dun hav to say sorry
as if I'm forcing or I doin something
to u to make u say tat..
I know u hav change yr blog add..
I dunno y u hav to do tat..
anyway I think its a good idea also..
At least I wont get hurt knowing things
about both of u..

___________________________
To all my love ones..
I'm changing my blog add soon..
If u guys wans it.. msg me to know the add ok..

Some stuffs I can give up some which I cant..
U can learn to give up alots of things for her..
But I can learn alots of things for u..

Alots of times was at opp of yr wrk place
jus to c u wrk..
alots of times siting down at yr block
thinkin those days having dinner n all..

After all memories are still here..
But u hav started new one..

God hav grant one of my wishes..
take away her pain n sadness..
Give her my happiness..

Now god..
grant my new wishes..
Take me away...

*To Don..
I dun think I hav pro with my eyes..
or my math suck..
Pls go tro yr blog n read them date by date..
18th u say how much u love her..
how u will wait for her..
on the 21st..
u start another story..
isnt it be 3 days..
Anyway lets stop it..
I'm tired..
___________________________________
Y everyone of u hav to make emtpy vows..
Or promises..
Y cant u say n do it..
If u cant do it..
Dun say it loud..
Make love so untrust..
N everyone is so afraid..

I know I can nv get u back..
But I will prove it to everyone..
Words I said..
can be done..
let times prove..

Y.. Y u hav to do tis to me?
U find someone younger is ok..
but Y hav to be my friend's ex..
I dunno wat to say..
HURTs..
damn hurt by both of u..
one is my love n the other is friend..
is she better than me??
when she knows I love u tat much..
N she go after u when she keep saying
she love my friend so much..
I dunno..
Things happen so fast..
I jus can't believe it..
Crying when readin how she type about u..
my friend jus break with her for 3 days..
N tat 3 days she keep msg my friend
saying how much she love her..
But now u r with her..
Wat is tis..
Is the world playing with me..
Y???
everythin is so diff now..
the one u huggin n kissin
is not me..
the one who use to slp beside u
is not me..
N its will nv be me again..
But the one I love is u n it will be u always...

Was really having a bad headache..
having drinks tis few days n not enough slp..

saw her profile..
everything hav change..
she's att.. but not me..
Feel sad n hurt..
thinking y ..
Am I so useless??
I really love her..
really did put in everything in the relation..
but y end up she's getting on with others.. Not me??
She ask me not to drink..
she say she's quittin smokin too..
she hav her..
But I hav nobody..
I hav no one there for me..
she use to be unwanted in her profile..
when all I wan is her..
Now she's wanted..
wat about me??
she say we r still friends..
anyway jus hope she's happy now..


I really love her..

你那么爱她

直到爱消失你才懂珍惜
身边每个风景只是它早已离去
直到你想通他早已再对你留恋
最后的你开始了一段挣扎

你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱她这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

I'm tired of my life le..
I dunno wat to do..
Feel so lonely n helpless..
Who can be there for me..

Her msg is always short n cold..
she say I should move on..
she say she jus wan to be friends with me..
But I cant feel anything..
Loves, Cares n Friendship between us..
All I know is I cant let go..
I still hav the strong feelin for u..
Now I can do..
waiting quietly for u..
waiting for u to look for me when u free..
Or need me..
I jus love u..
Miss u badly..
Goin be 3 weeks le..
My missin for u is going deeper..

Going to march le..
still thinkin whether I should go diving..
But I dunno how to swim..
Last time when she still with me..
She wont allow me to go..
she's afraid tat anything will happen..
Now I dunno will she still cares..
I really wish to go..
I wish to go deep down to c another world..
I'm too sick of the world I'm facing..
If anything happen.. At least I can c the beautiful side..

God bless me..

Msg her yesterday night..
but she didn't reply me..
I wanted to c her so much..
I miss her..
wonderin how is she..

Finally got the time
to upload all my pics..

My baby hamsters really cute..

Now days keep findin ppl to go out with me..
Thanks to my love ones who keep me company..
Dar, Rain n all my meis.. thanks..

tired is all I can say now..
stress is wat I hav now..
Missing her is wat I can do now..
wishing her back is my wish for now..

Mao mi.. I really miss u..
miss u days n nights..
miss the times we had together..
Miss yr scent yr kisses yr hugs n all..
wat I hav to do to hav all tat again??

going to 2 weeks le..
I miss u badly..

tis is sara.. the funny guy which I like wrkin with..

tis is me.. before cutting n highlight..Mmm.. No diff right.. haiz..

new stuff added to my mix drink.. its suck with tis..

Tis fish is caught by Vin.. its damn huge la.. half was gien to Trainers n half was for us.. before n after cook.. Vin do the fishing.. I do the cookin.. everyone say its nice.. haha so happy.. not easy to cook ok.. need to take off the scales n wash all the stuffs inside the fish.. n need to put some ingrediant to the fish.. I got skill ok.. haha

Tis is the chocolates I pack n given to all my love ones one on valentines' day.

tis my baby hamsters.. they r really cute.. my bei bei loves n cares alot.. u can c the pics how she take care of them n loves them..

Tis pics is taken quite sometime le.. taken when I was wrking to wrk in 7-11..

now wrking.. was super tired..
eyes closing soon..
onli slp for 2 hr..
got to wrk tonight again..

Drink quite alot last night..
Sorry mei..
forgot wat I hav drink..
too much to name..

I miss her badly..
Wan to feel her in my arms again..
Miss her voice..
Miss seeing her smile..
Miss her laughter..
I miss her..

was suppose to wrk today..
but super late for wrk..
start wrk at 830am..
but I reach at 10am..
So tired.. having headache..
didn't hav a proper slp also..
My kness get pain again..

Still rem when I'm with her..
she will care for me..
worried tat I walk too much or run
I will hurt my knee..
but now she's not here to care for me le..

Yesterday was Valentines' day..
Alot of couple was there to celcebrate..
Wonder wat is she doing..
Did she enjoy herself?
Who she's celcebratin with??
I miss her..

I meet tis couple fr U.S..
they r les..
The butch tok to me 1st..
they r really friendly..
Know tat they r married in U.S..
1st time here in sing..
to celcebrate Valentines..
So loving..

Wrk till quite late last night at 7-11..
miss the last bus in sentosa..
didn't manage to get a cab..
so the onli way is to walk out sentosa..

So tired..
Thinkin how many hours I hav slp
tis few days??
Miss huggin her tro the night
miss her beside me..
I really do..

Mao mi..
I miss u badly..
been more than a week le..
Do u miss me too??

wrking now at DL..
tired is all I can say..
Eyes closing..
No more strenght..
No more energy..
All goes to her..

Thanks to my Carol mei..
Thanks to all my friends..
All of u r great..
Thanks for tellin me jokes to cheer me up..
But u all should kown..
After all tis.. All my smiles hav gone..
If can tell me about her..
I know u all cares..
Stop intro gals to me..
if can intro her to me..
Tell her I love her lots n deeply..

My watch seem to stop at sometime..
think it goin to spoil..
But the real time is still going on..
If can.. I wish..
to stop the time when I'm with her..

yesterday when I finish wrk at DL..
walkin along the beach for my PT job..
Took some photos..
I realise the sky is so beautiful..
Shall post when I'm free..
Memories with u r in my mind..
The day we had in sentosa..

Carol says tat I hav to list down
wat I hav drink each time..
I had 2btt of tiger..
2btt of voka..
1btt of 33..
tats all..

I dunno y we hav to stop even being friends..
seem like u hate me so much..
U dun even wans to meet me..
Hav my memories in yrs been wash away??

I miss u slpin beside me..
I miss the way u hug n kiss me..
I miss the name u call me..
I miss everything so badly..
I miss u..

Valentines' Day coming..
I hav plan tat day..
Wrk whole day..
all I can do is wrk..
cant stop wrkin now..
Cos tats the onli thing I can do..

Sorry tat I cant give u the love u wan..
I try to..
but still u cant forget her n acc me..

now going to wrk again..
off today at DL but wrking another place..
before I go I read her blog..

for my love you..
I really dunno wat to do to get u back..
Like u r waiting for her..
Y can't I wait for u..
U ask me to let go of u..
Ask me to forget u..
As wat u say..
its hard to let go n forget her..
Its goes the same to me..
Wat makes u think tat I'll let u go n forget u easily..
All I can say is..
I still love u..

Dar.. how I wish u r here with me..
I hav so much to say..
I'm hurt dar..
know tat u r sick..
didn't wan to bother u..
Hav to let u rest..
So didn't say out..

Sis..
U r not at hm..
wanted to borrow yr shoulder..

Rain..
want to share with u..
but u r busy at wrk..
n I know u will be unhappy to hear all tis..

Nobody is here for me..
God can u hear me??
Ans me!! I need u...

My friends..
stop asking me wats wrong..
stop askin me y I'm not eatin or
stop tellin me
tat u saw someone like her last night at thumper..
I'm not with her
n she's not meeting me.. Stop asking y..
Its hurts..
If all of u really my friends..
Stop asking..
Be there with me...
Thanks..
Having headache now..
Need to rest..
sorry tat I "F" some of u..

Mayb I'm too rushing to meet u..
keep askin u when u going to meet..
So tat I can pass u the presents
for Valentine n for our 2mth..
N yes serve me right..
In the end u msg me saying tat..
U dun wish to meet me..
Yes the words hurt deep in my heart..
Tears rollin down..
Thinking wat hav I done..
All I wan..
Is to meet u to see you..
Is tat wrong..
I dunno wat can I do..
I feel so helpless all the sudden..
God I'm tired..
Pls take me away with u..
Tell me wat should I do..
then u will take me with u..
if u didn't wan me..
Can u beg the devils to take me away..

I'M TOO TIRED OF THE LIFE I"M HAVING..

Change my blog song..
Its for her..
hope she listen n like it..

Inner Voices - Baby Girl
There are times when i look in your eyes
i see the love that we shared
i see the joy inside
but i didn't see the feelings you hide
and now you're saying goodbye
because your love has died
And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced...baby
baby girl
why don't you come back to me
why don't you love me anymore
baby girl
you know i still care for you
you know i will love you forevermore...(2x)
There are times
when i kiss you goodnight
I feel the love that we shared
I feel the joy inside
but I didn't feel what you tried to hide
and now you're saying goodbye
because your feeling has died
And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced...baby
baby girl
why don't you come back to me
why don't you love me anymore
baby girl
you know i still care for you
you know i will love you forevermore...(2x)
And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced...baby

tis yellow one..

tis is baby blue colour..

took tis while walking around.. love the colour..

tis 2 ang mo kids cute right.. they r twins.. 1 gal n the other is boi..when I tok to the gal.. the gal will keep waving her hands n say no no no.. when I tok to the boi.. he will keep sayin bye bye.... haha wonder they understand wat I say anot..

Happy BD to Keith..
30 yr old le wor.. haha..

Actually meeting her tml..
msg her to ask how's tml..
but she say she will msg me tml..
I'm afraid..
Afraid tat she's not meeting me..
I pray..
I miss her lots..
Tml is 8-02-06..
If we still together..
it will be 2mth le..

Tired le..
headache will appear all the sudden..

finally got to meet my two sweety.. Swee n Sharon Mei... Meet them for dinner few days ago.. walkin around didn't know wat to eat.. So decide to try out HK cafe at Kovan heartland mall there..

tis the drinks we order.. the first one is for swee milo dino.. second is mine yuan yang "coffee n tea mix" n last is sharon ice horlick..

does tis look delicious?? it a dessert in hk ba.. cos I order tis in a hk cafe at Kovan heartland mall there.. had dinner with my two sweety.. Swee n Sharon..

Look guys.. tis my bao bao hamster's babies.. actualy there's 8 of them.. but sad tat 3 r dead.. now left 5.. in the pic onli hav 4 becos one is right in the cage.. their eyes are still close.. still dunno how many male n female.. too young to tell.. haha

tis latte is fr a cafe at seragoon.. wen to hav a drink with friends a few days ago at night.. find tis quite interestin.. so took a pic..

Had a bad headache now..
still hav to wrk..
drink quite alot late last night..
I miss her..
dunno y.. she jus appear in my mind..
Read her blog..
know tat she's missing someone else..
Wonder hav she ever miss me before??

dun feel like eating anything..
had panadols..
having break now..
Shall I wrk tonight or shall I take a break??
Confuess now!!!

Miss u badly gal..

I miss her...

the entry I bloggin is for 2nd of Feb okok.. hehe
Was my off day..
Slp till 1pm plus..
really tired n didnt slp well also..
Stay at hm for the whole day..
Wen out to hav dinner with family..
Dar join us too..
cos I very long time didnt hav dinner with her le..
somemore its my sis BD..
she passin sis bd present..
Had "tin Tai Feng" at bishan..
Thanks to Dar who help me to book table..
Cos thinkin New yr sure alot of ppl..
After dinner me sis n dar wen to suntec..
cos sis wans to buy clothes..
after tat wen to Anderson to hav dessert..
I order banana split..
The banana split look so diff fr others..
was super full after eating..
took bus back n company dar back..
hm sweet hm..

wrkin later n wrking tml..
meeting sharon mei for dinner tml..

Tired..
Love slpin beside u huggin u tight tro the night..
I miss u..
take care..

tis is the banana split at Anderson ice cream.. look special right.. so diff with other ice cream store..

taken when having dinner..

dinner at "tin tai feng".. Order alot of foods.. So full.. yum yum

kisses fr us.. hehe

tis the birthday cake I bought for my sis bd... strawberry cheese ice cream cake.. Its nice lo.. yum yum..

my lovely sis with her bd cake..

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