jus reach hm..
finish bathing..
waiting for my hair to dry up..

today wrking at wine bar
till closing.. 3am.
super busy..
wasn't doing any drinks
cos I didnt know how to..
and everyone are so busyto teach me also..
all I do is wash wash wash..
wipe wipe wipe..
and I broke 1 wine glass.. hee..
didnt get scolding la..
cos my OM(operation manager) Jil
she broke 1 too.. haha
afterall at least I sold 2 btt of stella beer..
haha.. better than nothing..

tml not wrking for both side..
hee can slp till late late le..
ok la..
gt to visit my Z monster le..

I miss my piggy..
badly and alot..

Hi Hi..
finally back to blog le..
realise been a long time
since the last entry..
haha.. kind of lazy la..
sorry guys..

anyway now I'm blogging..
shall not tok cock
cos I hav already forgotten
wat I hav done tis few days le.
so I shall start fr yesterday..

yesterday was my off day..
so piggy, gillyn gal & me
wen to sun tannin at sentosa..
three of us kanna sun burn lo..
worst is piggy & gillyn gal..
I only got my arms burn..
but 2 of them got almost the whole body..
poor them.. haha..
but they really look cute..
imaging 2 cookin lobsters haha..
after tat we wen to vivo..
sky came along..
had dinner & movie..
but during the movie..
the 2 lobsters was slping all the way..
think they really too tired le..
anyway we had fun yesterday..

today was my off day too..
but waking up in the mornin to
go hospital with my mum , sis, grandma & uncle
for my mum's check up..
reach hm around 1 plus
to get some slp..

meet piggy after her wrk
wen to dinner at Sakae.
after tat I head to clark quay
for my first day wrking PT at "tasting notes"
oh ya.. its a wine bar..
first time training in bar counter..
fun & exciting..
kind of blur
cos all is wine's name..
somemore all the customers
there is mostly Ang Mo..
my english really sucks..
but I'll try harder..
I really hav fun today..
quite like wrking there..
Jia you.. zavier go go go.. haha
ok la..
shall stop here..
tml got to wrk..
night everyone..

I miss my piggy.. hee..
love you.. muack.

Wats going on with my life??
Y everything I do jus isnt right??
Am I asking for too much??

tired of thinking..
tired of everything..
tis jus isnt wat I wan..

Killing myself leaving tis world..

tis few days been thinking alot of things..
feeling kind of stress..
dunno wat should I do..

Y my life seem to be so difficult?
y cant I make things right??
haiz..
I jus dun wish to lose the one I love..
Is tat wrong?
Confuss and Stress..

down deep in my heart
I love you..
tis is true..

I miss u..
yes I do..
but wat can i do..
do u miss me like I do?
I love you..
yes I do..
but wat can I do?
does it makes u love me too?

I miss yr sweet kisses
I miss yr warmest hugs..
I miss everything about u..

not wrking today yet
my alarm ring at 710am..
tats the time I use to
call her to wake up for wrk.
holding the phone.
but didnt make any calls to her..
cos I know..
she will wake up by herself.
tis wat she always tells me..
lying on bed staring at walls.
doing nothing thinking nothing
jus like a dead body on the bed..

till mum wakes me up
company dad , mum & grandma
for breakfast..
and head to tpy
to see mum's new stall..
will be opening soon..

to zach..
sorry for wat I am now..
I really needs time to be alone..
u should know nowdays
I didnt tok much or
joke smile or laugh as I use to be..
I really not myself anymore..
zach dun worried about me..
I promise u..
I wont hurt myself again..
If u hav time company ping.
she really needs u more than I do..
treasure her..
she's a good gal..
dun regret when u lost her
then it will be too late le..
understand my dear friend??
anything jus tok things out..
I know u guys can go tro it..

to rachel..
sorry for the hash words I said..
I didnt mean it..
I know u r hurts by wat I say.
I'm sorry..
seriously..
I'm not the one for u..
I'm not as wat u think..
Like wat I say..
if I'm good..
I wont be getting hurts
in relation at all..
go for others..
like all my exs do..
trust me..
treat me as friends better than gf..
cos I'm not a good gf..
save up yr sms..
u should know I wont reply u
take care..

seeing tru alot of them..
realise tat who really cares & who donts..
kind of hurts when I know.
but tis is a way tat I know wat r friends for..
anyway..
tis my life..
I hav to go tro it..
I hav to find a way to
hits all tis troubles, pains & sadness away..
I wan myself back..

I miss u
do u feel it too?
I love you
do u love me too?

Who am I?
Y I feel I'm not me??
Wat is wrong??
Is it becos u?
Cos u feeling down, mood swing, or??
I dunno..
I'm not good at words
to cheer u up..
I didnt know wat to say
to continuse our conversation
like wat u say all I said is always
repeating question..
I'm sorry..

I'm sorry..
I really dunno y.
I really trying to do everything I can.
but yet still not to yr expectation..
I really cant stop myself calling you
or asking about yr life
cos I care & love you.
but tis not it turn out to be..
afterall..
Jus feel sorry tat u will feel tis way..
I'm sorry..
I didnt mean to..

A1:One More Try

Could be your eyes
Could be your smile
Could be the way you freed my mind
You precious touch caressed my soul
You gave me everything I need
And now I'm lost
Lost forever

Lost forever
And you said this is going nowhere, girl
And you said I turned my back on
You said I'm not the only one for you

Please give it one more try for the sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another, like you

Could be the lies
Could be my pride
Could be the days and nights so wild
Could be the times I wasn't there
And all the nights we didn't share
And now you're lost
Lost forever

Lost forever
And you said this is going nowhere,girl
And you said I turned my back on
You said I'm not the only one for you

Please give it one more try for the sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another, like you

I can't sleep, I can't live without you by my side
So cold(so cold)
So lost without you as my guide
You made me realise I'm nothing
Nothing without you

Please give it one more try for the sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another, like you

Baby give me one more try

I'm not suppose to wrk today
yet I wake up so early..
didnt slp well for the whole night
thinking of alot of things
which I didnt hav to..
cos no matter how things will still
be the same..
but I jus cant stop myself for thinking..
its jus came into my mind..
and yet had a nightmare..
which wake me up tis time..
think going to catch come slp again later..
cos going clubbing tonight..

gal.. y cant we give each another once more try
we going tro so much ups & downs
but not jus tis simple task?
I willing to go tro it but
how when u not with me?
gal I really love u even now
still the same.
Can u pls give our love once more try?
let me prove to u
tat I can give the love u wan.
be the one to be with u.
I jus deeply in love with u..

I love you..

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