I dunno whether wat I do is right or wrong..
Is it unfair to him.. Know he's hurting
but I really dun wish to leave without u..
I'm really happy when with u..
But I can understand how he feel..
I know he really love u.. So do I..
Pls god pls tell me wat should I do..

Heh guys..
Today was my bowling tournment..
Guess wat.. I won.. haha
I won the ladies champion..
N another surpise is we get the team champion too..
Haha.. my team there keith, me, geradline n steph..
we were so shock tat we get the team champion..
Cos our third games was super badly played..
the tournment ends around 1pm..
After tat went to town to meet my
zhu xiao di jess n my papaya gal haha no la
my cutely swee ying..
We wen to hav billy bomber for lunch..
super full.. after tat wen to monster cue to play pool..
Long time didn't play pool with them le..
we were like super crazy.. haha
Around 720pm wen to fetch my bao bei bb rain ..
she finish wrk around 740pm..
After tat jess n swee going off by themselve.. haiz..
start to miss them le.. dunno when meeting them again..
Anyway I bring bao bei bb rain to island cafe at ck tang there for dinner..
wanted to bring her there long ago..
finally cheat her to go there haha..
hope she enjoy the dinner..
After all hope she like the stuffs I bought for her..
Sent her back hm n cab hm after tat..
One day so fast pass le..
Tml go tto wrk again haiz..

I'm happy whenever u r with me..
I missing u..

Haiz today was my off day..
I'm off for 3 days..
yesterday today n tml..
Today was a super boring day for me..
Sleep n sleep the whole day.. haha
tml was my bowling tournment day..
I hav tis feeling tat I might not win dunno y..
Haiz.. Let c how ba..

I miss u..

When to wait for her to finish wrk..
bought her some love chocolate
hope she likes it..
head to PS.. had sushi at ichiban
bought cheese cake for her..
n wen to Samuel&Kevin
bought a shirt for her n myself..
After tat went for movie at 940pm..
We watch Fantasti 4..
Its a nice , cool n funny show..
Both of us enjoy the show..
After tat took cab hm..
Think she's slpin now..
Missing her..

Thanks friends for company me yesterday night..
Especially Zi gal..
So long didn't meet u le..
U change quite alot..
Anyway u hav to take care of yrself..
cos u look pale..
Dun always stress yrself ok..
Let things b wat it hav to be..
N no worries..
I'll do wat I promise u..
Be there whenever u need me..
N cheer u up whenever u r upset..
U always say I'm yr special clown..
so yap .. hope to c u again..

Today was my off day..
quite tired la..
think yesterday didn't slp well..
Got to meet her at night..
going for movie..
Miss watching movie with her..
Miss her lots..

ever since you have been gone,
my life is so empty.
i feel so incomplete.
dear i miss u.
i realli do.
i would be lying if i say i dun.
i miss ur hugs.
i miss ur kisses.
i miss the way u hold my hand.
i miss the way we tap our noses.
i miss calling u dear.
i miss teasing u.
i miss every little thing we did.
i love u.

Know tat u r at east coast now..
think back dunno how long we didn't
go there together le..
Miss the times when we wen there cycling
having waffles, singing while hugging u..
And all..
Dunno y u can treat me very good at times
n can jus treat me as a stranger at times too..
Really wish to know how u feel about me..
Lke jus now when I called.. u r so cold to me..
as if I called the wrong no.
Anyway jus wan u to know
I Miss You..

Jus reach hm not long ago..
Wen to her wrk place there to
pass her lunch
I cook lunch for her..
Long time didn't cook for her le..
Dunno whether she still like it anot..

Hope u like it.. miss u..

I'm hurt..
ya I know I shouldn't
cos its my fault..
Sorry for all tis..
Since for a long time I didn't drop my tears le..
Anyway ya its come back le..
I dunno wat should I do..
Like wat I say
All I wan is u to be happy..
didn't really wan u to be stress or unhappy..
But I was wrong.. wat ever I done..
Makes u stress more n unhappy..
Sorry..

I'm sorry..
I know I shouldn't say anything..
But all I care is u
I afraid tat u r tired n fall sick
but I was wrong..
in the end makes u think tat I'm jeaous when
u r with her.. makes u feel tat u dunno how to makes us happy
dunno how to be fair to us..
All I wan is u to be happy not me
I rather give my happiness to u..
But.. All is wrong.. I'm sorry..

another one more.. r we cute n lovely.. haha

pic taken on our anniversary.

I jus wish every things stops
but its getting worst than I think..
I dunno wat should I do..
Even now I didn't do anything wrong
but things jus involve me in..
Sometimes I did think over wat I hav done
tat day tat u give me attitude..
I really can't get it.. Somemore
giving customer pro n Im the one say sorry to them n
I still ask u wats wrong in a good tone..
but wat I get.. "NOTHING"
fr u.. the most funny part is
I didn't tok to u becos of tis n u still go n ask ppl
wats wrong with me.. I feel like laughing loud when
I heard tis..
Anyway I know wat I say now
is useless n mayb I'm useless too..
Now I'll keep rem tis
friends tat u know for yrs
may backstep u fr behind n
u jus like a fucking stupid idiot to them
when u still tok n smile to them..

I miss u badly.. how I wish u were here with me..

my turn to kiss back dear dear..

dear kiss me.. haha

dear bite bite me..

One more pic..

pic taken at PS before movie time.

Last night wen to watch movie
with my gal..
before movie.. we took some pic outside the cinema
aorund 955pm we wen in
we watch "wet dreams 2"
Its a funny movie..
all the gals are so chio..
haha..
Anyway really enjoy watching..
Tis morning had breakfast with gal..
after tat she wen to wrk..
Miss her badly..

I dunno wats the world come round me..
I feel so stress..
I dunno wat to do..
facing eveybody around me..
Y can't they find out the truth than
jus believe ppl say..
I'm sick really sick..
sick of everything..
MY LIFE SUCK!!!

Things happen come n go..
Sometime u jus didn't know wat happening..
Wat I can say everybody got to face
the world reality..
U won't know wat will happen around u
Even the one u trust or know for years
will jus betry u..
I got tis experience..
Yap its hurts but I still got to face it till now
Ppl can say diff things to diff ppl..
I mean they can say one words to u
but say another words to others
Yes I hav tat experience also..
Anyway jus hope tat we can take things easy
trust yrself than others..
N u won't get hurts..

I jus hope someone tat around me
can say out to me wat u unhappy of
dun need to give me face as if I own u..
I jus know tat I hav done nothing wrong
so I dun deserve all tis..
Think before u act..
u dun like ppl to treat u like tis
Dun think ppl will like it too.

bb rain n tigger..

me n tigger..

tigger puppet with blue roses..

Today was my off day..
wake up in the morning
pass Rain her stuff n company her to take cab..
After wait for everybody to wake up..
today we wen to gym again haha..
But tis time with Elaine n my parent..
Mum was super cute today haha..
After tat when to KFC to hav drink n wen back hm..
Wen to meet Dar to pass her bikini n meet together with wc..
Miss both of them so much..
Wc getting prettier le la haha..
Me getting sick le.. sob sob..
Meet Rain after her wrk..

Meet u after yr wrk
Bought u blue roese n a tigger puppet
for our anniversary..
today is 150705
if we r together tat will be 2yrs le..
We wen to Cine to take neo
so long nv take neo with u le..
u still look so cute..haha
After tat wen to hav yr fav tom yam mee hoon kueh
Yr face look so red after eating so spicy
look like doll haha..
We took train back
u staying at hougang
So I company u there
during the journey
we tok, laugh
making fun with each another
hug u till u really so close to me
really feel so happy when with u
When u reach
kind of sad leaving u
but I know we will meet tuesday for movie
dun forget u promise me le wor
n we gou gou finger le wor haha..
N lastly Happy Anniversary..
Love u lots n miss u badly..

Today is my off day..
wake up around 1230pm..haha
Around 3plus..
decide to go gym..
So wen to toa payoh with my sis
We reach there around 330pm..
Its so cool haha
first time been to gym..
Mountain turtle hor..
Anyway really enjoy..
hehe still will go again..
Now jus hope tml my muscles
won't be tat bad.. haha

I miss her..

Thanks for buying biscuits for me..
look so cute like me haha..
Really nice..
Thanks n
Miss u lots..

heart shape form by baby face biscuits.. Nice?

A baby face biscuit tat she buy for me.. hehe

Today after wrk
wen to hav dinner with
Vin, Edwin, Renee n
Marianna..
haha so happy to c her..
Hav give her a tight hug..
we had dinner at harour front
after tat I hav decided to go for bowling
so me, vin, edwin, ue n cg
went to kovan
to playing bowling..
Tell u wat I won't go there for the second times
the staffs there super attitude..
As if we dun pay for our games..
Vin lose on the last game
so he was going to treat us a drink
after tat sharing cab with him..
haiz tml got to wrk again..
super busy today..
hope tml will be fine..

Fianlly I got the book.. I believe you
I hav finish it..
mm.. quite touching la
the same old loving style..
happy together.. happy ending..
But haiz.. y come to real life its so diff
Anyway mayb tats my life ba..
I miss her..

U was suppose to reach before 1am tis morning
But I fall aslp n wake up in the morning 330am
Heard yr voice under the bed
Look down n saw u toking with Elaine
I was hungry
in the end I wen out to 7-11 to buy food
U didn't ask me
As if u dun care about me
I walk so lonley in the middle of the night
Feel so cold
Even I bought noodle
I didn't eat at all.
When I came in the room
u fall aslp
I wen up my bed
feel so uncomfortable
wen down to wake u up
push u to wake up
u say u won't company me to hav breakfast
u already meet friends for it
I can't say anything..
I'm sad..
U climb up my bed n fall aslp
As usual I hug u to slp
till tis morning
when u going to work
Saw jayson driving u to work..
I dun understand y..
I keep thinking
will u get close to me if I had a car..
Will u..
All I ask is u beside me when I need u
I know u won't..
Like now I dunno who u love who u dun
including me..
As long u happy
u can do anything u wan
now I can say
I will save money
to get wat I wan now..
I wish I can go for driving test
n all..

Last night finally got the chance
to watch movie with her
we watching Initial D at PS
She finish wrk at 830pm
But I finish wrk at 630pm
so I decided to collect tickets first
then head to buy some foods
n tibits for her..
cos the movie start at 9pm
kind of rush tat we won't be able
to eat dinner so
afraid she's hungry during the show..
After buying the stuffs
still got alot of time
so I decided to go the paragoon
to fetch her finish wrk
I msg her saying tat I'm at her wrk place
in the end she ask me to go back to PS
cos she's meeting her friend to pass things
So I hav to take train back..
I didn't blame her
its my fault I should ask her before I go over..
Anyway she reach PS around 835pm..
While waiting to go in..
I saw my zhu xiao di jessica..
So happy to c her..
Realise tat we really very long nv go out le..
Chat for awhile n the show starting soon
so decide to go in for the movie le..
Half way tro the movie
she fall asleep
thinks she too tired le..
Anyway as long she's with me can le
I 'll feel happy also..
She lie on my shoulder n fall asleep..
After the movie she stay over my hus..
Happy tat can hug her sleep again..
Miss her smell..
Miss her now..

I'm sorry tat I hurt you

Let me be the one beside you again
Only you can makes me smile again
Vow I had make is
Ever after to be with you

You r the onli one
Onli you n on one esle
U r the one in my heart

In Love, either I love you,
or I don't.
Dear, I had been thinking.
I had been trying not to love you,
but the fact remains; I love you.
I can try to forget you,
I can try not to love you.
I can find millions of excuse not to love you,
but still, it still boils down to tis single sentence:
I Love You

I'm really waiting for u
for u to return
know I hav to wait for a long time
mayb u won't return at all..
Mayb..
All my life is jus mayb..
But I can say my love for u is not mayb..
I really love u..
N my heart there onli you.
Baby bear waiting for baby rain tree to return..
So tat baby bear can hug rain tree again..
N tis time baby bear will nv let go..
Wishing for tis days..
Mayb..

I had jus finish reading the story..
but too bad they didn't write out the chapter 18
n the ending.. So u know wat
I'm going to purchase it..
I will soon get my book
n knows wat the ending was..
So eager for tat..

Hi guys.. I got tis website about love story
Its a nice one.. mayb if u guys
are free.. can check tis out..
www.i-believe-you.com

Today was my off day..
Msg her in the morning about how I feel
about all tis while..
In the end tears comes down again
when reading n writing..
I dunno y..
feel my life really suck..
Wat hav I done..
I miss u.. badly n lots
but do u really know..
Wat m I to u?
M I a stranger who comes n goes in yr life?
All tis question always pop out my mind..
I'm tired.. really.. wish to rest down close my eyes
to hav a rest n all of my life..
End with a happy ending than
Sadness n regret..
Can anyone help me?
I really cannot give her up..
I'm trying to move on without her
but there's still no one can replace her in my heart..
My mind still thinking of her n no one else..
How can I stop all tis..

I miss u..

U say u will be coming over..
but will be late..
In the end u say not coming le..
Cos u hav something on last min..
Anyway I hav prepare tat u won't be coming le..
So dun need to say sorry or
be sorry.. U hav yr life yr freedom to do wat u wan..
Anyway take care..
Miss you..

Me n dar..

photos at icekimo..

Car ride to hav our ice cream..

tis the place where we had our ice cream..

Today was Jim last day of being a full timer
n tml is Wc BD..
So Me, Dar, Jim, Wc n Renee
decided to hav dinner together after wrk
We had dinner at china town..
After tat Jim say treating us ice cream at his friend's cafe..
So yap we wen n took alots of photos
If u wan can go view my ablum..
N of cos we had alot of fun too.. So happy..
After tat Dar's friend drive me n Wc back hm..
N lastly..
Happy BD to WC..
Wish yr dreams come true n
find yr bai ma wang zhi soon ok..
N for jim.. All the best to u.. take care..
Tats all for today. tata..


I miss her..

Jus called u
n realise tat u r crying..
ask u wat happen..
but u dun wish to say..
In the end know wat happen
but I can't do anything..
its hurts me when I know u r crying..
Wat can I do to make u happy?
I would do anything jus
to cover yr tears with smile..
worried for u..
but onli can keep in my heart..
Dun wish to stress u again..
Hope u hav stop crying le..
Wish I can be there to give u a hug..
To let u know u stll hav me..
I miss u..

closer look..

tis pic is taken at my place near mrt station.. The sky is so special.. most of the part is dark grey in colour n onli one little part is white..

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