off today in sentosa..
but wrkin at bugis today..
stat wrk at 1230pm till 1130pm..
wah long hrs.. haiz
got to keep wrkin le..
life is so miserable.. haiz

Yeserday wen movie with jack jack..
before movie wait for jack jack to finish wrk..
had dinner at Cine foodcourt..
we had western foods..
Lamb chop for jack jack
chicken curlet for me..
Very full.. growin fat le..
take a rest walk here walk there..
sit till the time is up..
we watchin "hostel" at 1140pm..
R21.. mmm.. gals r sexy in the show..
but too gross overall for the movie..
too bloodly..

After movie sent jack jack hm
n head to Y Not..
after awhile head back hm again..

For her..
sorry for being so jealous..

I love playing with yr hands..
Love strokin yr hair..
Love the scent u hav..
Love to lay on yr shoulder..
Thanks for everythin which come fr u..
I Love u..

Me & hazel.. taken outside Y Not..

Me & Liting.. outside MoMo..

B&W.. gillyn tryin to act cute..

Me & gillyn.. taken outside my hus bus stop..

tis is Rain.. taken when lookin for her to pass her present..

tis the choco n Mr pee jack jack bought for me..

the day when my first time company her for her break..

today wen for my driving test..

WTF..
I FAIL OK..
JUS TAT STUPID "S" COURSE..
I WAS SUPER SAD LA..
I HAV NO PRO WITH TAT BEFORE
DURING MY LESSON LO..

once I reach hm..
throwin everything on the floor..
wen up to my lovely bed..
had a super crying session..
I hate myself..
y I'm so useless..
I know I shouldnt cry..
but imagin if tat stupid mistake
not been done..
I will hav pass my licence..
haiz.. lets not tok about tis anymore..

meet jack jack for her late lunch..
happy to meet her..
she bought me my fav Mr Pee handphone strap
n strawberry choco for me..
thanks jack jack..
I love you..
going movie tml night after yr wrk.. yeah..

Goin to clubbin tonight..
Got to drunk myself..
wahahahaha..

Got to slp liao.. haiz
got to wake up in the mornin
for my driving test liao..
So stress nw..
cannot get into slp..
God bless me ba..

Sorry jack jack..
sorry tat I wasnt there for u
when u r sick..
how I wish I'm beside u now..
anyway promise to hav lunch with u
after my driving..
wont let u eat alone ok..
I will sayang u as wat I say..
dun worry..
I will do it.. muack..
miss u lots..
cant wait to hav lunch with u..
I love you jack jack..

tis mornin wen to my drivin lesson..
haiz as usual..
get scoldin again..
haiz driving test comin le..
2more days..
28th is my driving test..
God bless me...

afternoon meet jack jack at town..


Tml got to wrk 2 places again..
haiz no choice..
abit tight tis month..
haiz.. after deduct tis n tat..
I think I hav not much left
die liao.. really got to eat grass le..

I wish u can open yr hands 1 day
to let me hold u tight..
I wish I can be the one to let u lay
on my shoulder always..
I wish I'll be the one in yr mind..
I wish u can let me close to u to hug u tight..

I love you..

after my part time job..
take bus back..
on the way back was on the
phone with jack jack..

half way tro I ask for hang up..
dunno y..
feel so moody all the sudden..
Sorry jack jack..

thinkin all tro the journey..
over my hus stop..
walk back..
reach hm on my pc..
starin at the com..
doin nothing.
thinkin again..
feel something weird..
my tears start to fall..
I dunno y..
dunno wat happen..
dun dare to tell her..
afraid of alot of things..
I hope I'm thinkin too much..

I jus love u too much gal..
afraid of losin u.. jus u..

I like the way u r..
the way u stuggerlin
to wake up in the morning..
the way u tok when u r tired at night..
the way u laugh & smile..
the way u say dunno all the times..
the way u keep sayin La..

I jus like everything fr u..
Thanks for caring & worried
about me..
jack jack.. I love you...

I dunno y..
all the sudden mood swing..
I jus dun feel good..

Wat can I say..
I hav no right to say anything..
I'm jus a nobody..
I dunno wat u should do..
I jus dun feel good when she's close to u..
Sorry gal..
I really wish to meet u so much..
but all u say is u dunno..
tats the onli ans u can give me
for all my questions..
I know u r sad over yr hp..
I know u need to concentrate
on yr studies n all..
I didnt wan to stress u..
I will wait for the yes.. fr you my jack jack..

I love u..
Yes I do..

today was almost late for my PT job..
took a cab down to bugis..
reach on time..hehe...
Not much ppl today..
so ater doin everythin..
I go hm early..
suppose to finish wrk at 11pm.
but I reach hm 11pm..
Gt to wrk tml...

today once I reach hm..
I give jack jack a call..
knowing tat she' cryin over losting her hp..
I really feel so hurt to hear she cried..
yet I cannot do anything..
Feel so useless all the sudden..
useless tat I didnt able to get the cab..
didnt able to find back her hp..
dunno wat to do when she's crying n all..
I'm sorry jack jack..
sorry..

Dun worry..
I wont force u..
I will let my love grow on u day by day..
to let u know..
Panda wans jack jack to be the onli owner..
I love you..

today was almost late for my PT job..
took a cab down n reach jus on time..
not much ppl today..
dunno y..
anwyay wen off early after doin everything..
reach hm around 11pm..

call jack jack once I reach hm..
know tat she been crying all the while..
I feel so hurt..
I really feel so uselss all the sudden..
for not able to get the cab..
for not able to get yr hp back..
for not being there for u when u cried..
Sorry jack jack.. I'm sorry..

Dun worry..
I wont force u..
I will wait for tat day..
wait for tat day when panda got jack jack..

I dunno wat to type actually..
alot of things happen..

shall tok about my pT job 1st..
I'm wrkin in tis HK cafe at bugis..
the place was at Liang Seah St..
Name of the cafe is Causeway Bay HK cafe..
U all should check tis out..
Sellin nice foods n cool drinks.. haha
I like the 7-up Rebina..

Driving test comin soon le..
Still dunno will pass anot..
haiz so stress up nowdays
when having driving lesson..
Hope everything will be fine..

For her...
Question Hav been ask..
Ans still been unknown..
Waiting for tat yes..
Hope u understand..
Miss u lots..

I'm sick..
I cough
I hav fever..
sian.. haiz..

I miSS my JacK jacK.. sob sob

the foods tat we order for.. in vegetrian resturant

Chris & me

rinGs on their hands.. OmG u saw chris's hand.. he's on the below one.. look like gal hands la..

tiS thier rings.. so shinnin.. alot of diamonds lo..

Chris alone.. really change alot.. mmm.. a hint mean
he's not so chubby last time.. really put on weight..
oopss.. hehe

Tis my 2 gay couple friends.. Left Ivan right Chris

Today afTer wrK..
meet 2 lonG gay frieNds
for diNneR.
1st we wen tO chinatown market..
to bought my black pant for
my part time job tmL..
after tat we hav dinnEr at peaL ceNtre
we had vegetarian foods..
chat alot of things about travel..
so jealous of them..
OMG.. they been so many places..
After dinner we go off le..
seein them next week.. hehe

ToKinG tO JacK jacK noW..
jus knoW tat there's another Panda in her lisT..
feeL so sad all the sudden..
dunno y..
wondering.. caN she be the owner of minE
juS me no One else..
instead of her friend..

I miSs jaCk jacK..

song for her to know how I feel..

月半小夜曲--李克勤

仍然倚在失眠夜望天边星宿
仍然听见小提琴如泣似诉再挑逗
为何只剩一弯月留在我的天空
这晚以后音讯隔绝

人如天上的明月是不可拥
有情如曲过只遗留无可挽救再分别
为何只是失望填密我的空虚
这晚夜没有吻别

仍在说永久想不到是借口
从未意会要分手

但我的心每分每刻仍然被她占有
她似这月儿仍然是不开口
提琴独奏独奏着明月半倚深秋
我的牵挂我的渴望直至以后

Thanks to jacklyn..
for helpin me with the
loadin song in my blog..
thanks..

wen for interview..
1 at bugis 1 at Attica
1 at outram..
waitin for calls..

I need to wrk..
not becos of money..
becos I wan to spent my time
faster to makes me stop thinkin..

I know I'll tired..
dun worries to all my meis..
I know I'm getting diff each day..
but rem meis..
I will still care for all or u
like wat I'm doin now..

Yes I do..
Do afraid of alot of things..

I jus love u..
I dunno y..
keep hittin myself hard to get
the reason..
yet still I cant find any..
Hope u doin fine..
Miss yr everything..

wen driving tis morning..
Didnt slp well last night..
dunno y..
feel so tired..
get scoldin fr instructor again..
haiz.. wats going on with my life..

got 3 interview jobs later in the
afternoon at bugis & CQ..
lookin for part time jobs again..
quit my 7-11 le..
need to find some longer hr n more pay..

Got another course to go on may..
so sian.. boss keep puttin me to go course..
tis month already got 4 days go course le..
next mth still hav..
doesnt tat all courses is the same..
haiz..

Gal.. I miSs you

只对你说

站在寂寞的舞台上
灯光下拖着自己的影子
音乐重复我们共同的忧伤
不是每一次的演唱
就可以淡忘明天没有你
in my heart we'll never be apart
残留手上的香味提醒我
在数位相机里留下的承诺
每一封简讯传出的思念都对你说
(我爱你)means i love you
代表着我离不开你
每分每秒每一个声音
只有你撒娇会让我微笑
(我爱你)只对你说i will love you and forevermore
我答应 baby you will see
每一个我都属于你
oh baby i will love you because我都属于你

I dunno y..
my mind keep thinkin of u..
so far till now..
u r still in my mind..
every days n nights..
u will jus appear
1st after I open my eyes
n before closin..
Memories still here..
still in my mind n heart..
u still the one I'm waiting for..
I can feel the coldness u give..
I can accept..
I know things r diff fr last time ..
but still I wont change my mind..
Still hopin I can be the one going
tro ups n downs with u...
U still the one gal..

Love u too deep
till I dunno how to love myself..

me with 2 cute bears.. at PS

B&W.. below mei hus.

Hazel mei w my cap.. she look cute right..

me with hazel mei..

today dun need to wrk
cos going service course at uws..
today n tml..
sian.. course starts 9am-6pm..
almost slpin during the course..

didnt really hav enough slp tis few days..
feel so tired yet cannot slp early..
imagin tis mornin..
I was so tired till I walk with
my eyes close to the train station..
eyes jus cannot open..

hav movie with XP, Karven & Hazel
yesterday night at cine..
watch the black night..
I slp durin the movie.. haha
n Hazel mei says I snore. OMG..

Today after wrk
wen to hav dinner at PS
with John, Dar & Renee..
after dinner we hav craving for chocolate..
so we wen to secert recipe..
order quite alot..
Had my fav banana split also.. yum yum..

After our craving for chocolates..
we watch movie..
Ice age 2..
tis time with 2 more ppl..
wang ru n a malay guy who I dunno his name.. haha
the show very funny..
I like it..

got to turn in early le..
night..

I miss u..
really I do..

Renee acting cute..

1 more w renee(lettin hair dwn)

me w renee(hair tie)

dar, me, john & renee

me n dar.. look behind us.. u know where we r le.. haha

our chocolate craving.. hehe

brownies..

dark chocolate cake..

my fav ice-cream.. banana split.. yum yum

I miSS huGginG u tiGht in mY arMs..
How I wiSh I caN huG u foRevEr..
I juS miSs thOse daYs..

Story which I like to share..

一頓歷時89分鐘,價值274元的晚餐。
一對男女戀人步出餐廳。
男的吃這頓飯吃得好辛苦,
因他85分鐘都用了來想著公司的那份計劃書該怎樣做,
幸好女的一點也不發覺他心不在焉。
女的對男的說:「現在不算太晚,你不用送我了,我自己回家吧。」
明天就要交計劃書的男友,
"立刻"答:「好呀!那你小心點了,回家致電給我 吧。再見。」
男的飛快回家,去埋首他的工作,他不停的做直致電話響起。
他看看鐘原來已經半夜三 時許,
是誰這麼夜來電'他接過電話,
原來是他的未來外母:「我女兒現在還沒回家,
你不 是和她去了吃飯嗎'她怎樣了,我好怕......」
男的才記起女的說回到家後會致電他報 平安,
但現在已經夜半二、三時她為什麼還不回家。
男的心亂如麻,最後還是報警求助 。
去到警局,警員問他: [ 她失蹤時的衣著是'」
男的:「這...她......想不起來...」
警員:「不打緊,你先放鬆一下,
那衣服的顏色總會記得吧'藍色' 紅色'」
男的:「我...我只想著份計劃書,
吃飯也低下頭...我不曾看過她的...」
警員:「她的髮型呢'長髮'短髮'」
男的:「我跟她一起很多年了...
我所以...怎麼她的東西我一點也想不起...」
警員:「你說她是你女友,
你們最近很少見面嗎'怎會連髮型也不知道,
那她有帶首飾 , 手袋嗎'」
男的也是無言以對。
離開警局,男的覺得很驚訝,
驚訝他對女友的"不上心"。
多年來他已把愛情的感覺當成 一種 習慣,
就連對他的女友也"習以為常",
已經不把她放在心上了。
已過了三天,女的還是音訊全無,
這三天男的除了擔心女友的安危,
就是不停的想:
「她的髮型、她的衣著,我怎會不知道的!我一定要記起來!」
這夜,男的經過一條幽黑灰暗的長街,
竟看見女的就站在長街的盡頭。
男的高興得跑向她,想緊緊的擁抱她。
但走到女友的面前他就改變了主意,
他雙手按著女友的肩膊,說:
「等一下,先不要動。讓我看清楚你,你的頭髮、你的衣著,我要好好的記著。
回想起那晚,其實是你發現我還有工作在身,
想我早點回家工作而叫我不用送你的。
一直以來只有你還關心我的感受,而我卻不理會你。
但不要緊,我已知道應怎樣去愛你、珍惜你。
相信 我,你的一切一切今後都會常在我心中的。」
女的:「你終於都懂得理會我的感受,懂得珍惜我了...可惜已經太遲......」
男的忽然醒過來,原來剛才的是一場夢。
夢醒後男的努力去想,夢中女友的衣著、髮型,但還是記不起來.....
隔天,男的終於再見到他的女友,
就是在警員帶他到殮房認屍的時候......
望著躺在停屍間的女友,
男的哭著說:「我終於知道你的髮型,衣著,我現在才 真正的看真你。
我會記著的,永遠都會記著的...
我剛想到要珍惜你...你醒醒呀...不要就這樣離開我好嗎......」
男的剛學會珍惜, 卻已後悔莫及。
現在他除了哭泣,就什麼都做不了......
也許你常發現我一直凝望著你!你問我看什麼呢？
我笑笑的回答....沒什麼 ,只是想將你的一切記在心裏 ,在見不到你時細細回味..........

All about tis for the one I love..
N its you..

Wat I haV donE to deserve all tis..
God I dun wan anything now..
I dun wan to pass my licence..
I dun wan anyone by my side..
I jus wan u to take me away..
I wan to get away fr tis world..
God take me away..Pls..

Its my fault..
My fault for everything..
Thanks to u..
thanks for tellin lies to me..
thanks for makin me to trust u..
thanks for makin me look lke a idiot
who console u when u r down..
Stay by yr side when u r drunk..
hearing how much u love another one..
in the end..haha wat a idiot I am..
Thanks for all tis rubbish..
I know I'm a idiot..
I know I'm a piece of shit..
to let u make me believe n trust
to let u step over me n I didnt even feel a thing..
Thanks..

taken at DL after wrk.. I love the sky n sea.. they really makes the world beautiful..

April Fool..
is god playing games with me..
I feel so tired..
stop playing games with me..
I hav enough..
Pls..
I'm on my knees to beg u..
god pls..
Let me go..

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