I miss her..
hope she doin fine..

jus reach hm
after bathin le..
wen out for supper with
sky n gillyn..
wen to mutasfar..
keep laughin non stop..
cab hm after tat..

today the whole afternoon
stayin at hm helpin my mum
doin the dumplins..
peel salty eggs, cut garlics..
took photos.
too lazy to upload..
will do it one shots hehe..
take a nap after tat..
head to wrk at cafe again..
not much ppl today la..
mm.. tats all for now.. got to rest early
got to wrk tml mornin..
night all...

To her..
hope u r alright..
take things easy n dun think so much ok..
really hurts to c u like tis..
I feel so useless..
tat I cannot help u at all..
jus hope to c u smile once again..
Rem if u feel like tellin me n share..
I will be there for u..
Even u dun wish to say a single thing
n jus need a shoulder to lie on..
I can borrow mine to u..
take care gal..
dun stress yrself n fall sick..
its not worth to hurt yrself ok..
lastly.. I miss u..

I'm suck..
I know..
I'm jus nobody to anyone of u..
I know I should feel tis way long ago..
I'm stupid.. useless..
I am.. I agree..

Since u cannot help..
dun help..
I dun need any..
jus dun makes things worst..
I dun wan to..
Let me settle my own self..

stop askin me..
I dun wan to get involve in anything le..
I dunno anythin ok..
dun always when things goes wrong..
then come n ask me..
n push everythin to me..
n wen everythin turns ok..
tok softy to me again..
I'm tired.. I hav my own pro also..
Pls I beg u..
leave me alone..

I'm sorry..
sorry for everything..

wen clubbin last night..
drink quite alot..
but nv get high..
haiz dunno y..
nowdays hav to drink alot to
get the kick..

red club need servers..
I ask for it..
N very soon I get the confirm..
really damn fast..
but I was thinkin if I
wrk there..
mean I cannot club like everyone le..
instead of clubbing with friends..
I'm wrkin.. haiz..
still thinkin should I wrk anot..

off today..
morning help mum with some
of the dumplin stuffs..
sweep n mop the floor.. n now doin nothing..
feel like slpin..
but going out later..

haiz still lazing to upload my pis.. :p

today we celebratin Renee 21st BD..
her actual date is on the 29th..
we celebratin it early cos
Dar & john not around..
n she need to celebrate with her family..
In the end tat dar of mine..
didnt turn up..
cos she got tis "LITO"
"living in the ocean" in underwater world..
which she wanted for so long..

there's 13 of us..
Renee the BD gal..
Keith & Clarice..(husband&wife)
Tan, keiko, jamie, jim, edwin, marianna
John, Jiamin, Agnes & Me..
we had dinner at PS Swenson..
bought all our fav ice cream cake..
"mango tango" for Renee's BD..
There's 2 others tables celebrating BD also..
so we decide to ask one of the table
BD boy to take pic with Renee..
We had alot of fun.. playing cakes,
makin fun on another..
took alot of pics..
will upload another day..

After dinner..
Me, Tan, Clarice, Keith, Jamie & Keiko
wen to hav "duo hua" near Mr bean cafe..
aot off ppl there..
the "duo hua" was very smooth..
hav fun there also..

took bus back after tat..

I realise we seldom tok much now..
words r getting lesser n lesser..
not like last time we can tok on the phone
till we gets tired..
Now we onli last not more than 5 mins I think..
Dunno y..
Knowin tat u r unhappy..
I feel sad too..
Hope I can share yr sadness with u..
even I cant help..
I still can be there to be a listenin ear..
or lent u my shoulder if u wan..
jus hope I can c the happy jack jack again..
I miss u..

wrkin at DL today was kind of tired..
wen to slp durin lunch time..
had some rest n feel much more better..
dunno y nowdays really cannot slp well..
alot of things going tro my mind..

while going to finish wrk..
heavy rain a sentosa..
WTF..
I'm all wet..
board the bus.
damn cold la..
rush to wrk at cafe..
was slightly late..
actually dun feel like going to wrk one..
lucky I wen..
cos really not enough staff today..
wrkin like crazy..
serve customers, take orders, cashier
& serving foods.. all at one time..
so tiring..

after wrk..
I saw someone very familiar fr far..
walkin towards me..
I was so surpise..
Carol mei & gui yu was here..
OMG.. I was so happy run over
nearly kana bang by cars..
very long time nv see gui yu le..
Thanks to carol mei..
chat with them..
hugs fr them before I go..

Carol.. dun always cry..
its breaks my heart seein u cry..
promises fr me to u..
I wont break it.. ok

Having headache & gastirc..
think its becos I was caught in the rain..
then didnt dry yet then I wen into the air con..
Didnt hav lunch & dinner..
till now havent eat for supper..
dun think will eat le..
gotto try to slp..
or else I really will fall down..
no one will be here to take care if I'm sick..
haiz.. so evry those ppl whose gf will take care
of them when they r sick..
where's mine??

Miss u like crazy..
wish u r here with me..
know tat someone wasn't me..
words came out fr u hurts me..
but still tis I promise..
Lovin u eternity..

hate myself for loving you so much
oh i hate myself for falling back in love
never been good at words i wanna say
i sing my love for youi'll just let the music
makes sweet love to you
曾经和你因工作一起远飞
但我还未知心中有你
仍为了别个她魄散魂离
因她无法得到因此心已死
我便自悲不敢透气
已经苦得想死
惶论有天居然爱你
直到一天共你相见
被我知你从上次开始接触
便已就似触电
犹如得到星光的加冕
我没被讨厌
多得有你我终于有这天
多么憎我太慢才识你
我更加不想勉强地去亲你
是你喜欢我当然都爱你
和她不敢去比
仍旧答谢你有你的眷恋
令我也有了生气
多么憎我试着迷恋你
我怕想拥抱你也为了出气
愿我抛开过去一心爱你
忘掉她的气味
若我敢再记起对不起了你
如果和你一早得到好结果
没法明白单恋的痛楚
难道我乐意得到折磨
而不过从我跟她苦恋的最初
纵没成果颠倒的我
满足比伤心多
难道爱辛苦方似我
和她不敢再比
oh终于得到了被爱oh
无论兴不兴奋当天已不再
愿你终于变了一生最爱
连我悲观也改
没有旧人存在放心给你爱
做人或者不必要得到最想
如为快乐设想就祝福我俩

Today while wrkin at DL &
wrkin at HK cafe..
alot of things happen..
haiz..
1st I was late for wrk at DL..
2nd my nose so painful..
eat panadols..
3rd I was so careless..
I broke the warmer glass..
damn not the first time le..
think tis time I got to pay for it liao..
4th I'm late for wrk at Hk cafe too..
dunno wats wrong with me..
haiz.. hope tml will be better..
wrkin with cindy.. SIANNNNnnnn..
got to do stock take early in the mornin..
haiz.. more sian....

hope yr cough turn better..
heartache to listen u cough so badly tro the phone..
pls drink more water ok..
miss u..

Glasses I bloke today.. haiz.. not the first time le..


Tiger shark at underwater world.. new exhibit..

Closer look.. look at the teeth.. OMG!!!
Jelly fish.. cute right??
Shark eggs container..
Closer look at the shark egg.. Its alive ok..
Nemo.. Clown fish..
Japanese giant crab..

Blue spotted stinray..

Lion fish.. cool fish.. n ex too..
Tis the star fish in the touch pool..
My fav sweet now.. sold at 7-11.. but abit ex .. haiz no choice.. I jus like it..

didnt had a good slp dunno since when..
didnt eat much since now n then..
I dunno wat happen to my life..
everything jus not myself..

meet up with carol gal..
she really change alot..
she look more mature now..
anyway Kor hav to say tat I'm SORRY..
I know my words hav hurts u..
but tats wat I'm thinkin now..
I know u cares..
I know u worried about me..
u will meet up with me whenever
u read about my blog..
knowin tat something hav happen to me..
no matters how busy u r..
with sch, job or gf..
u will find times to chat with me..
u will cry with me whenever my tears drop..
But gal I really feelin tired le..
been 25 comin 26 le..
really sick of my life le..
till now dunno wat should I do..
I'm useless right..
so I think I'm not suitable to be yr kor..
when I dun even know wat to do..
Jus keep everythin to yrself
wat hav been told today..
anyway no matters wat..
thanks being there for me..
hope u take care of yrself..
wish u n yr gf forever in love..

I miss u badly..
yes I do..
I really in love with u..
yes jus with u..
mind & heart is all about u..
yes no one else but
jus onli u..

I'm sick..
I need u..
but lookin around..
I cant find u..
searchin high n low..
jus lookin for u..
no one can cure me..
except u..

She's sick..
wen over her wrk place in the morning
to c her..
Yes.. I'm worried n yes I miss her alot..
waiting for her to hav lunch with her..
but she say mayb goin off early..
so wait for her
till 3pm tats when she finish wrk..
wen to wisma to hav lunch..
didnt tok much..
was super silent tro out the lunch..
company her hm to c doctor..
in the end the clinlic was close..
she ask me to go off first
her mum will bring her to c doctor..
Pullin my legs along the way..

reach hm around 5pm..
take a nap..
wake up 615pm..
time to wrk at bugis le..
reach there jus on time..
wrkin with one idiot is enough..
Piss off with him..
ask for resign..
But boss n lady boss ask me to stay..
will tok to tat idiot tml..
sian..

got to wrk tml..
haiz..
dunno wat to do now..
cant slp early nowdays..
dunno..
keep thinkin alot of things..
mind crackin le..



Tears droppin..
I hate myself..
I not a sweet tok person..
I cant even make the gal I love smile..
she wont be happy to be with me..
I'm bored I dunno how to tell jokes..
I'm useless.. cannot take care of her..
when she's sick..
I wish I get all the sickness..
Heartache to c her sick..



I know..
I'm not the one u love..
I know I cant replace the special 1
in yr heart..
But I will still do wat I suppose to do..
cos I love you..



reminds me my story again..
Blind, Mute & Deaf..
Really wish to be the gal now..



I'm not worth to live for so long..
My life suck..Can I stop living..???



down with slighty fever..
badly cough all the sudden..
nose block n flu..
haiz..
nvm la.. sick better.. no one cares..
dun hav the engery to think so much..

never let you go

the rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, i feel the same
everlasting pain of my loss remains
my heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left the mark
all that i dreamed of now it seems so stark
tho i told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would sing to you and tell you i won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
i'd never let you go

the way, you left me on the train
i don't know what to say
i remember everything on that day
i can't believe we'd never dance
i just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance
tho i told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
if you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would sing to you and tell you i won't live my life without you
if you gave me, one more chance to tell you how i was feeling
i would hold your hand and look in your eyes and ya know,
i'd never let you go
_____________________
Song for u..
hope u like it..
I love u..

I'm still awake at tis time..
its already 330am le..
wat the hell I'm still bloggin...
haiz.. got to wake up early..
but cannot get to slp dunno y..

wrkin in cafe today was super piss off..
jus becos of someone jus know how to
tok dunno how to do..
jus know how to tok tok tok n tok..
really piss off with him..
haiz...

U going off for yr trip later
u will be away for 3 days..
but was pack with yr days
after tat..
dunno when will c u again..
miss watchin movie with u..
miss yr scent
yr smile
n yr voice..
jus miss every little thing fr u..
hope u take care of yrself out there..
drink more water
n less heaty foods ok..

I miss u..

ThinK going tO raiN le..

taKeN fR my cLaSs..

I liKe tiS piC.. haha DunnO y...

mmM.. reaLLy bOrEd lo.. haha

noThinG tO dO.. sO phoTos timE.. haha.. MissinG somEone..

My faV swEEts whIch maKes mE awaKe..

Nice fooDs alwaYs comE wiTh gooD wIne..

Me & RazaK.. hehe

tis our lecture..

today mornin wen to for my course..
there's onli 8 of us in the course..
WTH la..
N the course was so borin
n makes me so slpy can..
keep forcin my eyes to open..
till the lecture walk near n say
"U wrk till quite late last night dun u"
I keep smilin dunno wat to say..
so pai sei can..
during my lunch time
when to NTUC to buy my fav sweet
to make me feel awake during the class..
end class around 5pm..

rainin heavily..
get wet..
was cold..

got to wrk tml..
as usual..
2places..

Jack jack..
u say u lke tis song..
so manage to find it..
now here it is.. n hope u like it..
I miss u..

I like tis...

before highlight.. pickin out some hairs fr my head..
I look so weird.. wearin a condom.. haha with hairs.. eeeee..
after putin highlight.. need to wait for the colour.. Wah lao I look damn funny can..
putin treatment on my hair.. haha..

today was my off day in sentosa..
wen to paragon for highlight my hair..
after tat meet jack jack awhile for her break..
head hm..
take a nap..
go to wrk at cafe..

I'm havin ash green for my hair..
in the end I didnt c any.. sob sob..
they say need to wash my hair for 1 week
then I can c..
so sad..
Make sure after 1 week I'll c it..
or else.. eeerrrr..
gotto go back salon again..
I dun care..
I wan my ash green..
_______________________
To her..

Yes its true..
no lies fr me to u..
U r the one who I wish to see..
the one I like to make fun of..
the one who can brighten my days
with yr smile n laughter..
dunno when I can meet u again..
u fully book tis whole week..
will miss u badly..
especially the days u r away fr sg..

I love u..
_______________________
Not wrkin tml..
having course at bukit timah..
haiz sian..
so many course I hav to att..

still awake at tis time..
dunno y..
jus cant fall aslp..

thinkin of u the whole day..

Mei with my spec..

Me & mei again.. I like tis one..

taken with my hazel mei.. she doin tat I didnt.. OMG.. haha

took in the man toilet..

haha c.. gillyn dacin with the wall..

Me & jamie.. outside red club..

Gillyn with my spec too..

hazel mei with my spec..

hazel mei in red club..

Me & hazel mei in red club..

Hazel mei & me..

Gillyn & Jamie.. outside red club..

Cheers!!!

Gillyn copy cat.. :p

Me with E33 & Bacardi orange..

Me & Gillyn in the cab..

Me & Gillyn at coffee shop..

wen clubbin at red club..
Gillyn, Jamie, Hazel, Liting, XP
Kraven, Sam, n alot more..
drink quite alot..
dance with alot of ppl to..
forgot who I dance with le.. haha

wake up in the mornin around 8am..
for tat stupid voting haiz...
had breakfast with parent..
head hm to get more slp..

I dunno y I need u so much..
I know I heard..
heard ppl sayin we r impossible..
really?? tis wat we meant to be??
I love you..
I really do..
I miss u..
Lots n true..
But wat else can I do..
jus be close to u..

think dar tired le after eating medicine.. haha imagin herself slpin on a yellow bed..

Me acting cute.. mm.. I think not cute lo.. so ugly.. eeeerrrrr..sucks..

taken at Kovan neoprint shop.. using my hp to take.. haha..

Dar is sick.. poor thing.. hav to eat so many medicine.. hahahaha.. onli dar know wat I'm laughin about.. anyway hope u get well soon ok..

In the lift..

Me & JeN Dar.. in the train.

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