having another tattoo
on my wrist
by end of tis mth..
but haven think of design yet..
any recommend?

trying our best to be there for
someone u care
but sometimes becos of
small little things
will blown away the goods.
jus becos all of us is too emotional?

let it be.
dun explain
dun care
dun bother
be it.

At tis hr tis timing
I'm still awake
instead of lying on the bed
I'm here blogging??

So many things on mind
Wat shall I do?
Mayb yes mayb no?
Shall I care or jus leave it wat it wan to be??
Share or keep it?

Life is damn complicated
too many things to be done
too much to take

hav u ever tot of leaving tis world?

bring my soul out of my body..
clear my mind clear my memories.
nothing shall be kept in my life story..

Never Let You Go

The rain just never seems to bring
The joy I feel the same.
Everlasting pain of my loss remains.

My heart can’t seem to learn to part
The hold you left you mark.
All that I dreamed of now it seems so stark.

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

The way you left me on the train.
I don’t know what to say.
I remember everything of that day

I can’t believe we’d never dance
I just need one more chance
To share the sunset our one last romance

Though I told myself won’t hold my breath
a part of me was dying.
There is nothing left for me to do now.
But give in.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would sing to you and tell you I won’t
Live my life without you.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling.
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes.
And you know I’d never let you go.

today was my off day.
meet up with hs for lunch.
very long nv meet up for lunch with her le.
she bring me to tis Jap restaurant
call Shokudo at Raffles City Shopping centre
Its look like Mache.
means they will give u a card at the entrance
then u hav to use the card to go order yr foods.
the price can say ex not ex cheap
also not very cheap la.
can be afford to eat a meal is wat I can say. haha
oh and they will give u a wooden round thing
for u to reserve yr table while
u r away to look around for yr foods. cool right
Can give it a try. not bad environment also.
Total our bill is $39.05
including drinks and gst.
so yap. is it ex or cheap?

tis is the card for u to order yr foods. look like credit card right? and pls dun lost it. cos u hav to pay $100 if u do. like mache.
Tis is for u to reserve yr table. cool...
Tis is wat we hav for our lunch.Tis is our dessert.. banana creeps with chocolate ice cream. yum yum

ok la.. got to go rest liao.. cya again..

Lay down here
take a deep breadth
and hold

Behold
Let e thoughts flow freely

Of words of feel
Of all of tat lay in me

Trapped in e past
Moving on is sometimes not a process not a choice
not a way out
and most of all not a healer
like how most say time will heal e pain

Not true not everything can ever disappear with time

Telling urself
U shouldnt feel anymore
doesn't mean u dont feel anymore
When u say to gif up n forget
doesn't mean u can do it

All e times wondering why
After all e time gone by after all tats been struck along e way
why does someone stay in ur heart
Despite all, she still is there even if u try to get on
thinking of her, it always make u feel so much
Always go weak on e heart

You never ever said
You never replied
Should i take your last words tat i could rem
as e words u wanted to say
Perhaps it can be answered by just one simple answer
Your ways say it all
Perhaps its only I just wouldn believe in it

But after all e wears n tears
All tat u said n seeing the u now
I think i can't but must convince myself tis is u

Is tis wat u really wish
Nothing i can bridge to get to ur side

I'm not sure which is e real u
E girl who took my hand and gently kissed my lips
Or e girl now who doesnt even take a glance of me

It doesnt matter
If u didnt love me
It doesnt matter
If u didnt love me like i do

Has carved tis love i have for u
Words aint able to express

And when people say because of our love we have been thru so much pain
So just let go
They are wrong
Because is tis just it, our love?Is it just some weak unsubstantial love tat has only just tis much
They have underestimated
Even if time n fate is playing a fool on us, again n again
I will love u, in my heart it has always been
And i will love u
No matter how much pain no matter how much more awaits ahead

Tis is reli wat i feel
Thru e pain n all else
I rem e times when we joined as one
I rem when u were with me
It was such a short time but i rem
Every place we went every word we spoke of
Every feeling at every moment
Every touch ur finger laid on my face on my hair
Every place u held my hand every place u laid ur head to rest on my shoulder
Every time tat u kissed me
E exact moments play thru my head over n over
I rem every second of it n i hold them close to my heart

Perhaps u didn know
When flashes of e silly talks we had, sweet things tat we spoke
They do bring me smiling to myself unknowingly

Perhaps u didn know
I really felt for u

to all my dearest friends

hav to say sorry if u guys feel bored
after reading my past few days entries
cos all is about her..
I really dunno wat to write
except her..
so yap..
sorry about it..

been 3mth le
tis is the longest break up we had
and I know..
we wont be back anymore

been thinking tis few days
y cant I jus like u
let go of everything we use to hav
and fall for another one

I cant.
cos I know.
the one who stays
in my heart is u.

looking tro the pics
we use to take together
the things u hav write and make
for our anniversary
and I know..
tis is all I can hav about u.

without u in my life
is jus like a body without a soul.
hands r cold without yrs to hold
smiles r gone without u here to cheer.
I'm down without u holdin me up.

gal..
I miss u.

suppose to wrk today
in the end decide to take mc
didnt hav the mood to wrk at all..

listening to the radio
listening to the songs u hav sang before
heard the song tat I hav add
for yr ringtone when u call..
how many times I wish I heard
tat ringtone once again..

I keep wondering
y?
y u rather love someone so deeply
tat been keep hurting u
by saying things tat she cant make it
dun even show concern when u need her..

and yet..
I'm jus so near to u
wishin tat I can hold u tight in my arm
once again telling u
u still got me..
I'm always here for u
to love to concern..

so near yet so far..

after yesterday night.
after wat I saw u sent to her.
feel like no matter how many cuts
coming along
I wont feel it anymore.

feel so hurts to c how much u love her
and yet she dun ever care
and yet I'm here waiting for u back once again

I know no matter wat I do
how hard I try
u will nv be back
cos she hav taken yr heart away..

like wat I say to all my friends..
yes mayb some times later I will like someone..
but I will nv love anyone
cos I only love u
my heart only belong to u

yes I will move on
moving on with u deep in my heart.

I might be crazy might be foolish
might be a loser might be anything towards
tis relation..
I jus wish..
I can be the one taking care of u
loving u treasuring u..

I know some ppl out there was
been saying something
I jus hope tat dun mistaken by wat u see
like wat I say..
I onli love the one in my heart
and no one else
so stop guessing or spreadin words around
jus becos I'm close to tat person
friends are friends
and always will.
if anything u dun understand
or curious wanting to know..
dun be shy..
come and ask me
instead of asking one another.
I dun wish rumous are
the one who spoil my friendship.
thanks alot..

Wat is forgets?
Wat is letting go?
I didnt know how
all I know is I cant stop thinking
memories memories..
Jus wish to keep it inside..
nobody will knows.

Everywhere is about u..

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